It was 3:49 pm that I got a text from Shani.
Shani: Hello. How do you do? Is 4:20 pm a good time to go?
Me: Hi. Thanks. Yes. I will meet you in the department.
Shani: I am still home. Can you come here or I should come?
Me: (Really? We had lots of misunderstandings because I went to your home, and now you ask me to go there for absolutely no reason? What's the matter?) My car is in the parking lot. Come there 4:20.
Shani: OK :) Don't be late. If I got there late, I will be fined for it.
Me: (She sends me happy smilies. It seems that she is OK today.) No. I will be on time. In the worse case, you will pay for the fine! (joking)
Shani: No ;(
Me: Don't worry. We will be on time.
Shani: OK ;)
Something is different about her. It seems that she forgot what happened last week. Let's see. I couldn't do anything until then.
I saw her from the far in the parking lot. "Wow. She looks different and amazing. What's wrong with her?" I thought to myself.
Me: Hi.
She: Hi. You are late again.
Me: It is not late. Let's go. Would you drive?
She: Give me the key! :)
She was incredibly nice to me. She spoke very kindly and warmly.
Do you like my hair style?
Me: Yes. It looks great.
She: It is the first time that I chose this style. It was a risk because I didn't know if it suits me or not.
Me: To me, it looks amazing.
...
Me: Where are we going?
She: It's a surprise.
Me: I know. Are you going to get tanned?
She: How do you know that?
Me: I searched the address in the Internet.
She: Yes. I do.
Me: No way! Why?
She: I am super white. I always wanted to be tanned for years. This place is the best in our town.
Me: Everybody loves white :) Are you going to make yourself like sun burnt.
She: No. I like tan. All celebrities do that. It is not for low class people like you!
Me: All celebrities are wrong [excluding Taylor]. They are just crazy.
She: I felt that I need a change in my life. This week I was trying to change myself for no obvious reason. I bought different clothes. I went to a massage bar on Monday. I am going to get tanned today. But please don't laugh at me if it was not good.
Me: I will laugh. (me laughing loud!) It is funny. You will be completely black!
She: No. Not black. Just tanned.
Me: OK. It is funny. People buy whitening creams to get white, and you are going to pay for getting darker.
She: You are so bad! I always wanted to be tanned. In addition, it is temporary. It is only for 10 days. In the worse case, I would stay in my room for ten days.
Me: (Laughing very loudly) You are funny!
She: Please don't laugh at me.
Me: I can't. I imagine you being black. Anyway, I like white better.
...
We got there early. It was not hard to find a parking space. The store was a small store in the middle of the city. A middle-aged lady talked to Shani. "You arrived super early... I am going to use this 8-hours lotion for you. Afterwards, you should go home and wear slack clothes and rest."
I brought my camera out of my pocket to take her picture. "Before operation! " I said, "and we will see after operation soon!" and she laughed. She was a surprise. Not only she didn't complain about it, but she smiled and encouraged me to do that. I could remember the last time in that restaurant, she said mockingly, "you take picture of everything," and derided me. "I know what to do with you if you laugh at me after that," she said, and she went to the other room. Her voice was begging me to support her.
I sat there waiting for her and thinking about her. "I like her, but should I tell her? I expected to ask her out for tonight. We could go somewhere and talk. We could be together, but now she should go home and rest. Look at this girl. She is also pretty. Isn't she better than Shani? She is American. I can improve my language. I think that I will never marry Shani because she is very different from my perfection. I mean she is good, but Taylor... Shani cares only about herself and not others. She is not sentimental. I tested her several times, and she didn't pass many of them." I thought to myself, and I decided to talk to the other girl to spend my time properly.
Me: Hi. I am Woody. What is your name?
She: I am Natalie. (smiling)
Me: Are you here to get tanned?
She: Yes, I am.
Me: Why?
She: You are super pretty. Why are you going to get tanned?
She: (pleased and smiled) Thank you. Because I like it.
Me: I took my friend here to get tanned, too.
She: Really?
Me: Yes. What are you doing? Facebook?
She: Yes.
Me: Are you living here? (She was bored)
She: No. I am from Ohio.
Me: Wow. You came all this way to Texas to get tanned?
She: No. I didn't. I came with my mom. She is on a business trip.
Me: I see.
And that lady came, and interrupted our conversation.
Shani came out of the room. She had no significant change!
She: I didn't change at all. I am still white.
Me: No. You are a little darker.
She: I wish I had selected a darker color. I wanted to be more tanned.
Me: Don't worry. You look good.
The guy asked Shani to come to his desk and pay the price. Afterwards, he started to repeat what that lady told us to Shani. I was two steps behind Shani.
He: You shouldn't take a shower for eight hours. It will be darker until then. Wear a lack dress, and put a sheet on your bed because it's color, and it spreads over. Put something between you and him (pointing to me), It may spread over him, too.
He said that, and it was close that I blow out of laughter. He was trying to suggest her not to sleep with me tonight :) I really wanted to see Shani's reaction, but her face was toward him. I couldn't hear the rest of his words. "OK. Let's go," she said to me. We came out of the store, and I opened my camera to take a picture.
Shani: Please take my picture. Please! I would like to see how different I got.
Me: (She spoils herself to me to take her picture. What's wrong with her today?) We should go inside. The light is different. You can't compare pictures.
Shani: Take it now.
...
I took several pictures of her, and she was very happy. We headed off toward the university.
We were near that bar that we went the other day, and I said, "I should go back here tonight! It's not fair." She said, "why?" I said, "Because you should go home. I planned to go there with you tonight."
We talked about tanning in the highway. I laughed a lot. It was kind funny to me that people pay to change their color! Remembering that guys words also funny to me. I imagined that I slept with her tonight, and my hands traced are all over her body tomorrow morning. She couldn't go out for ten days because she would become the funnies contemporary art of the year.
She: Why are you laughing?
Me: I can't tell you now. Sorry.
...
She: I read their website last night, and I laughed a lot.
Me: Why?
She: It was funny. They wrote something bad I can't say.
A few seconds silence.
She: It was not that bad. I can say it. They wrote that you shouldn't do anything to perspire like playing sports or being in a warm room and sex. ... sex! They think that everybody is like them to have it every night.
I just smiled, and I didn't say anything. She should feel very comfortable with me that talks about this to me. I don't know if she could talk about it to anyone else or not.
...
She: I am hungry. Don't you mind if we go to Target to buy something before going home?
Me: No problem, but if you are hungry, we can go to a restaurant to eat out.
She: Do you know bubble drink? We can go and drink there.
Me: I don't drink.
She: It's not an alcoholic one. It's good.
Me: OK, but if you are really hungry, we can go for food. Dinner on me.
...
She drove to that place. "If it is on you, so let's go to a Chinese restaurant first. I was here with my friends one time, and I think that it was good," she said, and we went there.
I liked the environment.
She: Do you eat pork?
Me: NO.
She: But it is very delicious. You don't want to try it?
Me: Not at all.
She: It is religious or your personal preference?
Me: religious.
She: So, you won't change your decision. What do you like to eat?
Me: Whatever you like.
She: OK. Let's order two dishes together. One vegetables and one chicken.
She: May I look at the pictures in your camera?
Me: OK. Take it. I am going to go to the bathroom.
A few minutes later.
She: I always thought that why you are taking these pictures, but now I think that it is amazing. You have a picture of every memories you had. My uncle does the same. He has many pictures, too. Hey, it's me. I look great here. ... Oh my god, that's me from the behind. I am excited. I had never seen myself from the back :) please send me pictures of today. My family is curious to see it. Send me the pictures of Justin's wife birthday, too. I like them. How do you like my dress here?
Me: It's not good.
She: O :(
There was no sign of disagreement at all. Not only she didn't disagree with me, but she tried to make herself spoiled for me to convince me that I was wrong.
Me: I didn't say that it was bad. I think that you could wear better dress. For example, I like your today's dress. When I saw you in the parking lot, I said Wow! What a dress she wore today.
She: This is my worse dress. I wear it at home usually or for working out.
and under her lips she said, "got it, you like black dresses" (She was wrong, but I didn't say anything)
Me: I like sport dresses better. Your dress here is not sport. That's why I think that it was not good.
She: For more than seven years, I wore sport dresses. I wanted to make a change in my life, and I bough many of these classy dresses. Have you noticed this pretty pink tape around its bottom? You didn't. Isn't it beautiful?
Me: It is. I didn't notice it. I didn't say that this dress is bad. I just said that I didn't like it that much.
She tried to show me that she didn't want to disagree with me with her eyes and changing tone. I was just surprised. "Is she the same girl who I went out with her a few nights ago?" I thought in my mind, "hopefully, I know her other side. I think that I am very right that I don't show my interest to a girl from the very beginning. She could represent herself in a way she is doing now, and I could never see her other attitudes. I could easily be trapped by such a manner. Anyway, she is nice, and I like it."
The food was kind of new, and I liked it. The chicken's taste was sauce, but it was good. When the waiter brought the bill, she put her hand in her bag, and bring her credit card out and surprised me one more time today. "Is she the same girl who got angry when I didn't pay for her that night?" I thought.
Me: No. I pay for the food. You pay for the drink as we agreed.
She: OK.
The environment was very good and Chinese! I think that it was my first time in a Chinese restaurant, and I liked it.
We went to another place to get a drink. The drink was completely new to me. It was called bubble something. We sat there, and she started to talk about herself. I couldn't believe that she started to show off to make me interested in her. She started to show her pictures in her cellphone. I remembered Natalia who did exactly the same that night in the art museum. It seems that it is a pattern that girls try to show their best works and pictures and talk about their life. She showed me many pictures of herself, and her paintings, and her traveled places and her home and room.
Me: You have many good pictures in your phone that it is not in your FB.
She: Yes. I don't like to upload all my photos there.
...
Me: I want to talk to you about a very serious thing.
She: What's that?
Me: It's about last week.
She: Please forget it. [Look at me how nice I am today. If I made a mistake I am so sorry. Just forgive me and forget it. I don't want to talk about it. pleeeeaaaase....]
She acted in a way that made me change my mind completely. "I think that I can accept her as a girlfriend for a while," I thought to myself, "she is not my perfection, but at least she likes me. Look at her; she is trying hard to convince me that she is a nice girl for me. I am confused if I should ask her or not. Time flies very fast. We should go home soon, and I should tell her before leaving, but... She is very different today. She is pretending that she is someone else. I accepted her the way that she was before. What should I do now? Let's ask her if she has a boyfriend or not."
Me: Who was that boy in that picture?
She: Who? He is my brother.
Me: Not this one. The other one.
She: (Changing pictures very fast) This one?
Me: Yes.
She: He is a very very good friend. I know him for more than four years. He came here a few months ago, too.
Honestly, I hadn't seen that photo at all. I didn't even expect her to talk about another boy. Who the hell was he? What was he doing here?
Me: Are you in a relationship?
She: It's like asking Facebook status? ... No. I am not. Where is my relationship?!
Me: I don't know. Just asking...
I heard this from her mind: "Now you know that I don't have a boyfriend. Ask me to be your girlfriend. If you don't do that today, I would never let you to have sex with me. Today is your last chance. What are you waiting for? ASK ME......."
She showed me some more pictures.
"OK. Let's go. It's late. I should go home. She said not to stay out for a few hours," she said, and she turned her cellphone off, and packed her things up.
Me: Wait. I haven't had my drink yet. Let' finish this.
I just wanted to buy more time to think about talking to her or not. My conclusion was that I couldn't ask her for a relationship today. At first, I was not sure about her religion. Secondly, I needed more time to see what she wants from a relationship if she was interested. Thirdly, I might need more time to think about her; she was very different today. Even though she was very nice, it was a kind of dishonesty, and dishonesty is the biggest red flag for me. But I thought it is not a bad idea to let her know that I like her and ask her for a time to talk.
Me: You know what Ms. Shani? I really like you...
(Between my words) She: A heart has a path to another heart (implicitly said that she likes me)
Me: And I would like to be more with you...
She: If time allows ...
Me: I would like to talk to you more seriously about it later.
She: Let's see.
And we entered the car. I put some music from Omid, and she really liked it.
It was like she was my girlfriend, and she wanted to show off herself to me. Today was the best day that I had with Shani, but it was not like the other day when I was with Nancy. She was the nicest girl on the planet to me today. However, my heart couldn't fly with her because I was in doubt from her. She had been changed a lot. She was not that selfish girl anymore, but who is her real self? How does she see me? Another boy to please her for a while and throw away after she got sick of me? A game changer? A chance to leave her current life and build a new life? ... These questions filled my mind after I left her.
Shani: Hello. How do you do? Is 4:20 pm a good time to go?
Me: Hi. Thanks. Yes. I will meet you in the department.
Shani: I am still home. Can you come here or I should come?
Me: (Really? We had lots of misunderstandings because I went to your home, and now you ask me to go there for absolutely no reason? What's the matter?) My car is in the parking lot. Come there 4:20.
Shani: OK :) Don't be late. If I got there late, I will be fined for it.
Me: (She sends me happy smilies. It seems that she is OK today.) No. I will be on time. In the worse case, you will pay for the fine! (joking)
Shani: No ;(
Me: Don't worry. We will be on time.
Shani: OK ;)
Something is different about her. It seems that she forgot what happened last week. Let's see. I couldn't do anything until then.
I saw her from the far in the parking lot. "Wow. She looks different and amazing. What's wrong with her?" I thought to myself.
Me: Hi.
She: Hi. You are late again.
Me: It is not late. Let's go. Would you drive?
She: Give me the key! :)
She was incredibly nice to me. She spoke very kindly and warmly.
Do you like my hair style?
Me: Yes. It looks great.
She: It is the first time that I chose this style. It was a risk because I didn't know if it suits me or not.
Me: To me, it looks amazing.
...
Me: Where are we going?
She: It's a surprise.
Me: I know. Are you going to get tanned?
She: How do you know that?
Me: I searched the address in the Internet.
She: Yes. I do.
Me: No way! Why?
She: I am super white. I always wanted to be tanned for years. This place is the best in our town.
Me: Everybody loves white :) Are you going to make yourself like sun burnt.
She: No. I like tan. All celebrities do that. It is not for low class people like you!
Me: All celebrities are wrong [excluding Taylor]. They are just crazy.
She: I felt that I need a change in my life. This week I was trying to change myself for no obvious reason. I bought different clothes. I went to a massage bar on Monday. I am going to get tanned today. But please don't laugh at me if it was not good.
Me: I will laugh. (me laughing loud!) It is funny. You will be completely black!
She: No. Not black. Just tanned.
Me: OK. It is funny. People buy whitening creams to get white, and you are going to pay for getting darker.
She: You are so bad! I always wanted to be tanned. In addition, it is temporary. It is only for 10 days. In the worse case, I would stay in my room for ten days.
Me: (Laughing very loudly) You are funny!
She: Please don't laugh at me.
Me: I can't. I imagine you being black. Anyway, I like white better.
...
We got there early. It was not hard to find a parking space. The store was a small store in the middle of the city. A middle-aged lady talked to Shani. "You arrived super early... I am going to use this 8-hours lotion for you. Afterwards, you should go home and wear slack clothes and rest."
I brought my camera out of my pocket to take her picture. "Before operation! " I said, "and we will see after operation soon!" and she laughed. She was a surprise. Not only she didn't complain about it, but she smiled and encouraged me to do that. I could remember the last time in that restaurant, she said mockingly, "you take picture of everything," and derided me. "I know what to do with you if you laugh at me after that," she said, and she went to the other room. Her voice was begging me to support her.
I sat there waiting for her and thinking about her. "I like her, but should I tell her? I expected to ask her out for tonight. We could go somewhere and talk. We could be together, but now she should go home and rest. Look at this girl. She is also pretty. Isn't she better than Shani? She is American. I can improve my language. I think that I will never marry Shani because she is very different from my perfection. I mean she is good, but Taylor... Shani cares only about herself and not others. She is not sentimental. I tested her several times, and she didn't pass many of them." I thought to myself, and I decided to talk to the other girl to spend my time properly.
Me: Hi. I am Woody. What is your name?
She: I am Natalie. (smiling)
Me: Are you here to get tanned?
She: Yes, I am.
Me: Why?
She: You are super pretty. Why are you going to get tanned?
She: (pleased and smiled) Thank you. Because I like it.
Me: I took my friend here to get tanned, too.
She: Really?
Me: Yes. What are you doing? Facebook?
She: Yes.
Me: Are you living here? (She was bored)
She: No. I am from Ohio.
Me: Wow. You came all this way to Texas to get tanned?
She: No. I didn't. I came with my mom. She is on a business trip.
Me: I see.
And that lady came, and interrupted our conversation.
Shani came out of the room. She had no significant change!
She: I didn't change at all. I am still white.
Me: No. You are a little darker.
She: I wish I had selected a darker color. I wanted to be more tanned.
Me: Don't worry. You look good.
The guy asked Shani to come to his desk and pay the price. Afterwards, he started to repeat what that lady told us to Shani. I was two steps behind Shani.
He: You shouldn't take a shower for eight hours. It will be darker until then. Wear a lack dress, and put a sheet on your bed because it's color, and it spreads over. Put something between you and him (pointing to me), It may spread over him, too.
He said that, and it was close that I blow out of laughter. He was trying to suggest her not to sleep with me tonight :) I really wanted to see Shani's reaction, but her face was toward him. I couldn't hear the rest of his words. "OK. Let's go," she said to me. We came out of the store, and I opened my camera to take a picture.
Shani: Please take my picture. Please! I would like to see how different I got.
Me: (She spoils herself to me to take her picture. What's wrong with her today?) We should go inside. The light is different. You can't compare pictures.
Shani: Take it now.
...
I took several pictures of her, and she was very happy. We headed off toward the university.
We were near that bar that we went the other day, and I said, "I should go back here tonight! It's not fair." She said, "why?" I said, "Because you should go home. I planned to go there with you tonight."
We talked about tanning in the highway. I laughed a lot. It was kind funny to me that people pay to change their color! Remembering that guys words also funny to me. I imagined that I slept with her tonight, and my hands traced are all over her body tomorrow morning. She couldn't go out for ten days because she would become the funnies contemporary art of the year.
She: Why are you laughing?
Me: I can't tell you now. Sorry.
...
She: I read their website last night, and I laughed a lot.
Me: Why?
She: It was funny. They wrote something bad I can't say.
A few seconds silence.
She: It was not that bad. I can say it. They wrote that you shouldn't do anything to perspire like playing sports or being in a warm room and sex. ... sex! They think that everybody is like them to have it every night.
I just smiled, and I didn't say anything. She should feel very comfortable with me that talks about this to me. I don't know if she could talk about it to anyone else or not.
...
She: I am hungry. Don't you mind if we go to Target to buy something before going home?
Me: No problem, but if you are hungry, we can go to a restaurant to eat out.
She: Do you know bubble drink? We can go and drink there.
Me: I don't drink.
She: It's not an alcoholic one. It's good.
Me: OK, but if you are really hungry, we can go for food. Dinner on me.
...
She drove to that place. "If it is on you, so let's go to a Chinese restaurant first. I was here with my friends one time, and I think that it was good," she said, and we went there.
I liked the environment.
She: Do you eat pork?
Me: NO.
She: But it is very delicious. You don't want to try it?
Me: Not at all.
She: It is religious or your personal preference?
Me: religious.
She: So, you won't change your decision. What do you like to eat?
Me: Whatever you like.
She: OK. Let's order two dishes together. One vegetables and one chicken.
She: May I look at the pictures in your camera?
Me: OK. Take it. I am going to go to the bathroom.
A few minutes later.
She: I always thought that why you are taking these pictures, but now I think that it is amazing. You have a picture of every memories you had. My uncle does the same. He has many pictures, too. Hey, it's me. I look great here. ... Oh my god, that's me from the behind. I am excited. I had never seen myself from the back :) please send me pictures of today. My family is curious to see it. Send me the pictures of Justin's wife birthday, too. I like them. How do you like my dress here?
Me: It's not good.
She: O :(
There was no sign of disagreement at all. Not only she didn't disagree with me, but she tried to make herself spoiled for me to convince me that I was wrong.
Me: I didn't say that it was bad. I think that you could wear better dress. For example, I like your today's dress. When I saw you in the parking lot, I said Wow! What a dress she wore today.
She: This is my worse dress. I wear it at home usually or for working out.
and under her lips she said, "got it, you like black dresses" (She was wrong, but I didn't say anything)
Me: I like sport dresses better. Your dress here is not sport. That's why I think that it was not good.
She: For more than seven years, I wore sport dresses. I wanted to make a change in my life, and I bough many of these classy dresses. Have you noticed this pretty pink tape around its bottom? You didn't. Isn't it beautiful?
Me: It is. I didn't notice it. I didn't say that this dress is bad. I just said that I didn't like it that much.
She tried to show me that she didn't want to disagree with me with her eyes and changing tone. I was just surprised. "Is she the same girl who I went out with her a few nights ago?" I thought in my mind, "hopefully, I know her other side. I think that I am very right that I don't show my interest to a girl from the very beginning. She could represent herself in a way she is doing now, and I could never see her other attitudes. I could easily be trapped by such a manner. Anyway, she is nice, and I like it."
The food was kind of new, and I liked it. The chicken's taste was sauce, but it was good. When the waiter brought the bill, she put her hand in her bag, and bring her credit card out and surprised me one more time today. "Is she the same girl who got angry when I didn't pay for her that night?" I thought.
Me: No. I pay for the food. You pay for the drink as we agreed.
She: OK.
The environment was very good and Chinese! I think that it was my first time in a Chinese restaurant, and I liked it.
We went to another place to get a drink. The drink was completely new to me. It was called bubble something. We sat there, and she started to talk about herself. I couldn't believe that she started to show off to make me interested in her. She started to show her pictures in her cellphone. I remembered Natalia who did exactly the same that night in the art museum. It seems that it is a pattern that girls try to show their best works and pictures and talk about their life. She showed me many pictures of herself, and her paintings, and her traveled places and her home and room.
Me: You have many good pictures in your phone that it is not in your FB.
She: Yes. I don't like to upload all my photos there.
...
Me: I want to talk to you about a very serious thing.
She: What's that?
Me: It's about last week.
She: Please forget it. [Look at me how nice I am today. If I made a mistake I am so sorry. Just forgive me and forget it. I don't want to talk about it. pleeeeaaaase....]
She acted in a way that made me change my mind completely. "I think that I can accept her as a girlfriend for a while," I thought to myself, "she is not my perfection, but at least she likes me. Look at her; she is trying hard to convince me that she is a nice girl for me. I am confused if I should ask her or not. Time flies very fast. We should go home soon, and I should tell her before leaving, but... She is very different today. She is pretending that she is someone else. I accepted her the way that she was before. What should I do now? Let's ask her if she has a boyfriend or not."
Me: Who was that boy in that picture?
She: Who? He is my brother.
Me: Not this one. The other one.
She: (Changing pictures very fast) This one?
Me: Yes.
She: He is a very very good friend. I know him for more than four years. He came here a few months ago, too.
Honestly, I hadn't seen that photo at all. I didn't even expect her to talk about another boy. Who the hell was he? What was he doing here?
Me: Are you in a relationship?
She: It's like asking Facebook status? ... No. I am not. Where is my relationship?!
Me: I don't know. Just asking...
She showed me some more pictures.
"OK. Let's go. It's late. I should go home. She said not to stay out for a few hours," she said, and she turned her cellphone off, and packed her things up.
Me: Wait. I haven't had my drink yet. Let' finish this.
I just wanted to buy more time to think about talking to her or not. My conclusion was that I couldn't ask her for a relationship today. At first, I was not sure about her religion. Secondly, I needed more time to see what she wants from a relationship if she was interested. Thirdly, I might need more time to think about her; she was very different today. Even though she was very nice, it was a kind of dishonesty, and dishonesty is the biggest red flag for me. But I thought it is not a bad idea to let her know that I like her and ask her for a time to talk.
Me: You know what Ms. Shani? I really like you...
(Between my words) She: A heart has a path to another heart (implicitly said that she likes me)
Me: And I would like to be more with you...
She: If time allows ...
Me: I would like to talk to you more seriously about it later.
She: Let's see.
And we entered the car. I put some music from Omid, and she really liked it.
It was like she was my girlfriend, and she wanted to show off herself to me. Today was the best day that I had with Shani, but it was not like the other day when I was with Nancy. She was the nicest girl on the planet to me today. However, my heart couldn't fly with her because I was in doubt from her. She had been changed a lot. She was not that selfish girl anymore, but who is her real self? How does she see me? Another boy to please her for a while and throw away after she got sick of me? A game changer? A chance to leave her current life and build a new life? ... These questions filled my mind after I left her.
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