I think about ordinary life like others today, but this question is in my mind: "Is ordinary life what I want?" I talked to Adrian about Shirley today. He doesn't know her. I asked him to ask his wife. He said that Shirley is in San Francisco with her parents who joined her there from Iran. At least I know that she is not with any boy now! I opened Shirley's photos, and I looked at her. She is a perfectly beautiful girl. A person whom can I really consider as a wife. Natalia is a good girl, too. I can live with any other girl, too. But living with them should be a very ordinary life in comparison to living with Taylor. Is it really what I want? I have no answer to this question now.
Dating Taylor may take a few years. In addition, the probability of this to happen is less than 0.01% for me. Logically, I have less than 0.0001% to be in a relationship with Taylor. To my best estimation, informing Taylor needs at least 12 more months. One year is not a big deal, but it is just the beginning. It may take one more year just to find a way to make a distant friendship. Converting this friendship to real relationship needs another year. This is very optimistic. I should confess that when my heart stops and brain starts, I think that Taylor is the most illogical case that I have ever considered in my whole entire life. OK. My heart is waking up again. Let's finish this conversation. I want to have those eyes :)
OK. I am going to do one important decision. My project will be finished in two months. The success speed of this project can help me to make my final decision. I am not going to marry anybody before that, but I start to see my available options. So, I start dating Natalia. I try to make a connection with Shirley. I continue seeing Patricia to improve my English and skills. I keep on my hard work to see if I can see Taylor someday or not. Managing all these girls at a time should be very hard, but I am going to do that :)
Dating Taylor may take a few years. In addition, the probability of this to happen is less than 0.01% for me. Logically, I have less than 0.0001% to be in a relationship with Taylor. To my best estimation, informing Taylor needs at least 12 more months. One year is not a big deal, but it is just the beginning. It may take one more year just to find a way to make a distant friendship. Converting this friendship to real relationship needs another year. This is very optimistic. I should confess that when my heart stops and brain starts, I think that Taylor is the most illogical case that I have ever considered in my whole entire life. OK. My heart is waking up again. Let's finish this conversation. I want to have those eyes :)
OK. I am going to do one important decision. My project will be finished in two months. The success speed of this project can help me to make my final decision. I am not going to marry anybody before that, but I start to see my available options. So, I start dating Natalia. I try to make a connection with Shirley. I continue seeing Patricia to improve my English and skills. I keep on my hard work to see if I can see Taylor someday or not. Managing all these girls at a time should be very hard, but I am going to do that :)
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