A pain in my heart

I felt a pain in my chest since last night. It was probably because of all stresses that I got yesterday. My conversation with Shirley was heartbreaking. In addition, my conversation with Natalia caused me to remember lots of old memories. I had a sharp pain in my heart, and I got worse during the night. I woke up twice because of that pain. I decided to go to the health center of my university. It was the first time that I wanted to be there.

I asked Shani its address because she used to go there. In addition, I wanted to test her to see if she cares about me or not. She asked me a few questions, but she didn't offer me to come with me.

When I was filling the forms, she called me again. She wanted to get my car's key to go to a pharmacy to get her medicines. I asked her to come to the health center. However, the time that she got there, I was in the doctor's office. I expected her to wait for me to see if I was OK or not, but she didn't do that. I think that she doesn't like me, or she is just very selfish. Anyway, doctor said that my vitals are all normal, but I need more tests that is not available here. She wrote something for me to go to a nearby emergency room to take some other tests, but i decided not to do that.

I think that I just needed more rest. So, I didn't want to go there. It was all because of yesterday. I had this feeling that I lost my chances being with Shirley, and Natalia reminded me my painful past. All of those thoughts caused such a pain in my heart. I hope to be good soon.