Very depressing day

I was home sick today from the morning. I went to the university, but it was vacant. I sat in the cafe, and I played chess for a few hours. I started to grade some assignments after that.

I was very gloomy today. I listened to a kind of music that I should never listen, and I started to cry. I cried in my prayer and after that. I don't know what's happened. I was unhappy that Nancy didn't call me to help her moving to her new house. "I miss her, and she doesn't know. If she liked me, she would have called me. I like her, but it seems that I am very wrong. I didn't plan anything for today to just help her, and I asked her several times to call me, but she didn't even call me. In addition, she drinks; I probably don't know her well. I wish I had never left Taylor's love," I thought to myself.

I missed Taylor so badly. She is very very far from me. It is almost two years that I came to the US, and it seems that I did nothing.

I was going home to rest that Shani called me. She was going to start her friend's car, but she couldn't. I knew that I couldn't help her, but I decided to go to see her. At least, I may find someone to talk to her and forget my depression for a while. I thought that it might be the battery. So, we jump started the battery, but the problem was something different. In fact, there was no problem; it was a manual car, and it needed to push the clutch pedal before starting the car. She invited me to meet run together around the campus.

I went home, and I wore my sport clothes, and I ran with Shani around the university in a running trail. I tried to be like normal, but she understood that I was not like always.

I got tired, and I came back home. It has been a month and half that I hadn't updated my blog, so I decided to write a few posts. I don't like to write diaries like that. I was not busy, but I was depressed most of the times; so, I started to play chess, and I started to spend more time going out with my friends. One more thing; I changed password of my chess account to something that I don't know so that I can't go and play it anymore. I feel better tonight, but I am still listening to Ronan song.

(picture is not mine, it's a painting shared for sale by someone. I liked it, and I put it here)