A gloomy day and Alexander's birthday

I still felt gloomy when I woke up in the morning. I came to school and started to work on my project. I got an email from my friend about his son. He had attached some pictures of him, and it made my emotional situation much worsen. I couldn't see any reason for such an innocent boy to be sick like that. He got a very rare type of a cancerous genetic disorder. They had lots of lab experiments without any results. He was in a great need, and I couldn't do anything for him. People marry happily, have a kid for ten years, and then they realize that their kid had a cancerous disorder since his birth. It is such a pain that I can't even think about it. My friend, his father, was in a desperate emotional condition.

I was not good at all, and I did something that I shouldn't do. I listened to some music records that I should never listen to. I cried every a few minutes while I was working my project. I couldn't control my feelings at all. Several things tied together to make my emotional situation very complicated; that night with Nancy and feeling an awkward element in a large group of people reminded me to a few years ago when I was in a very bad condition, and I used to talk my friend all the time. He came with my everywhere to help me. Now, the same friend, his son is sick, and I can't do anything. I returned to that time when I needed help, and he was there for me, but I can't be there for him. Flash backs of every painful moment after that heartbreak tied with flash backs of that night with Nancy and caused a catastrophic disaster to my emotions.

Crying made me feel lighter. I was calm in the afternoon, but for no logical reason I didn't want to feel good. I felt miserable and hopeless. Even Taylor's photos couldn't help this time. I know that I should never return to that time, but sometimes small things remind me everything.

Martin's wife called me and asked me to join them for Alexander's birthday party. I didn't want to go at all because I was in a very bad situation, but their plan was exactly in the cafe, where I was there. I was writing an email for my friend about his son and I was crying that Henry came to me. Hopefully, he didn't notice my eyes, or maybe he did, but he didn't say anything. We had a conversation about Facebook's recent research on 680,000 users. He said, he joined an emergency meeting in the other department about this. It was, however, a very minor issue. I knew that FB had many of these researches for years and years, and perhaps it was the first time that they published their results. A few minutes later, Marvin and some others came and asked me to join them.

I decided to join them because I thought that it might help me.

I didn't have fun at all. I looked at Nancy for a while to see if she notices me; if she really cares about me, but she had no reaction. Martin through Alexander into the water to surprise him as his birthday party. I was fasting so I couldn't eat the cake. In fact, I was the only person who was fasting in that group. It made me feel lonelier. They took some pictures and celebrate the birthday.

After the party, they came to the cafe to eat the cake. I sat in the chair that I used to and I started to work with my computer, but I could see them talking and laughing. Marvin came to me and asked me if I could help him buying a car or not, and I said yes. I tried to help Marvin to have a valid reason not to go and talking to others. They decided to go to Cici's pizza. Martin's wife also asked me to go there, but I wanted to say my prayer first. I didn't promise her to join them. Marvin stayed with me to come with me.

I said my prayer, and I cried a lot. I wanted to go home and be alone, but Marvin was there, and I should took him there, and I had no other choice other than going to Cici's pizza.

I sat far from Nancy. I looked at her several times. "Nancy! Don't you like me? Can't you see my pain? Don't you want to talk to me? Don't you want to ask me what's happened. You are the only person that I wish I could talk to her about my problems." I said in my heart when I was looking into her eyes. But she didn't understand my words. She just ignored my eye contact. I really needed to talk to someone, and she was the only person whom I could talk to, but she wasn't there for me.

I wanted to leave that place as soon as possible, but we were in a group, and I didn't want to leave it without any reason. I was very depressed and unhappy. I had a great pain in my heart, and nobody could understand it. We came out of the store to take some pictures. I had a chance to put my hand on Nancy's shoulder, but I didn't do that. I tried to look into her eyes again to ask her if she likes to talk to me or not, but she was just confused. She had no idea about it.

One day updating my blog

Today was the first day of Ramadan, but I was very depressed. I cried several times unintentionally when I was writing my blog. It has been a while that I didn't spend time for updating my blog. I had a period of depression, and I had started to play chess for a while to forget it. Later, I was busy with my project during the week days, and I was busy with my friends during the weekends. I had so many stories to write, so I decided to write them today. Unfortunately, I am still one month behind. I should summarize some of the parts to make it as soon as possible.

I listened to some Shajarian (he is a very famous Iranian singer) that I could never listen to them before. I wrote stories of buying Nancy a car, and getting her that apartment, and the good time I had with her exactly today when I was in my worse emotional conditions in the past a few months.

Martin's wife sent me a text message and asked me if I could go to their tomorrow night's party for Alexander's birthday or not.
Me: "Would you please ask me this tomorrow?"
She: "Why tomorrow?"
Me: "Because my today's answer is no, but it may change tomorrow. You schedule your plans without me."

I am not really in a mood of going to another party. I need some time to recover and think about my current situation. I tried to think about it today, but I couldn't come up with any conclusion. "I am not in love with her. I don't even like to be with her. In fact, it is not a bad thing that she is not my type of girl. I can be a friend without getting attached to her. I am tired of caring about others," I thought to myself. At the same time, I thought: "I can't see a friend doing this to herself. I can't be her friend. I should keep my distance from her and not to see her anymore. Maybe I should leave here to California. She should never even know about this. Perhaps I should leave all my Persian friends for a while. I wish I could find an internship faster."

I was Iftar's time, and I should eat something. I haven't had anything from the morning, but I didn't feel hungry. I went to the gym to work out then I came home. I was not hungry, but I ate something to remain healthy in Ramadan. When I came back to my room, I started to cry again.

I had a message from a Microsoft recruiter asking me to update my resume and get in touch with her. I will take my chance applying for MS once more. I will also call that Indian guy to see if he can do anything for me.

Worse night ever, feeling lonely

I went to that dance party event tonight. I was a birthday party with Bollywood theme. The host gave me an Indian shirt to be prepared for the Bollywood dance. I looked very good in that Indian shirt. I prepared a drink with milk that I made myself called "Pink Milk." Nancy and others came late. I also prepared a part of dinner there myself.

The dinner was good. We talked to each other for a while. There were several strangers.

Among them, there was a girl who came there with her brother. She was an interior designer, and she talked to me about her work. She was from France. She was probably as old as or older than me; so, I was not interested in her. I enjoyed the conversation because I didn't know anything about the interior design and she gave me a very good view. After dinner, everybody started to dance in the middle of the hall.

Everything was great until tonight. I never expected this to happen to me. I got tired, and I sat I was sitting there that I saw Nancy drank a small amount of a drink. It was not pleasant to me. I went to the other room to say my prayer. Obviously, I was the only person who did that tonight. I came out of the room, and I danced with them for a few minutes, but I didn't dance with Nancy. In less than an hour, I noticed her doing it again. I asked the host to forgive me and let me leave earlier, but she took my hand and said: "Please stay 10 more minutes. I don't want you to leave that early." I didn't know what to do. I decided to stay there for a few minutes, and I sat in the corner of the room. In the middle of dance, they brought a drink for everybody. People started to drink and drink. The smell of alcohol was disgusting. I wanted to leave, but I couldn't find the host. She was probably in the bathroom. That guy offered me to take a shot several times, and I declined, but Nancy got a big shot and drank a lot. Then, she realized that she can't drive like that. She got panic, and Henry went to her.
"Don't worry. Nothing happened. I will drive you home," Henry told her. I didn't want to listen to their conversation. I didn't want to see her doing that.

So many thoughts came to my mind: "Why did she do that? Why isn't she a responsible person? Is it really fun? She definitely doesn't like me. Otherwise, she will notice me not liking this." I went to the other room to find Martin's daughter to play with her, but Martin was trying to put her into sleep. I was hopeless and

I left there earlier because I felt that I couldn't stay there anymore. I talked to Nancy before leaving.
Me: "I am leaving. Bye." I got her hand in my hands.
Nancy: "Bye." (She looked into my eyes, and I stared into her eyes the entire conversation. Her eyes have been asking me to stay with her. She knew that I liked her, and she probably was not that sober.)
I take her hand with my both hands to have a more intimate feeling.
Me: "You OK?"
Nancy: "Yes. Henry will take me home."
Me: "Alright! [You probably won't see me again.] I gonna go. Bye." (I was touching her hand and caress it like I love her. I was very sad inside as she couldn't see my heart breaking. She couldn't even understand why.)
My voice lost in music voice when I said, "you probably won't see me again." She never knew my feelings tonight.
Nancy: "OK. Bye." [I really appreciate you like me that much]
I took my hands off of hers very slowly because deep inside I didn't want to leave her, but I knew that it was over.

I felt very lonely. I played a sad music in my car and drove my car to take Marvin to his house. In the way back to my home, I played it again, and I cried for a while.


I am a very stranger in this world. Sometimes I think that I made a big mistake to stay in this world for a bit longer. I felt very lonely tonight. I was an awkward person in the middle of some people having fun together. I can't even understand this kind of fun. It was like a torture to me. I was very different from all other people in that place, and it seems that nobody is like me in this world.

I remembered all those times when I was younger, and I was in love with that girl; I remembered how my heart getting hurt when she was dancing with others. It seems that nothing has changed. I am still the same person. I still can't see my loved one does something unacceptable to me. "You had fights with your father all the time because he was old-fashioned; how can you live with someone like him with just a different degree of tolerance? You don't even love me. Do you? If yes, why didn't you feel my heart aching?" I told to Nancy in my thoughts. I wish she could understand me.

I cried my eyes out and went to bed after that.

Another day with Nancy

I waited the whole week for today to meet Nancy again. Tonight is a dance party, and Nancy will be there. We can have a great fun night.

I called Alexander today morning to ask him if he wanted to come with me for shopping or not, but he didn't reply. I washed all my cloths again, and the dryer didn't dry them again. Surprisingly, Alexander called me back after two hours, and asked me if I am going to go there with Nancy.

Me: "Nancy? Is she going to go there, too?"
Alexander: "Yes. She called me and asked me."
Me: "I didn't know that. It would be great to go there together." (What could possible be better than going there with Nancy?)
Alexander: "OK. I will call her, and we will pick you up at your place."

I had nothing to wear other than my formal suit. I wore my suit's pants and shirt, and I came out of my house to wait for Nancy and Alexander.

They showed up after a few minutes. Nancy was amazingly gorgeous today. I had never seen her that pretty. "Did she do this for tonight's party? It doesn't matter. It just shows that she is better than any other Persian girls here." I thought to myself. Samantha was also with them.
Samantha: "We are going to go shopping only. Why did you wear your formal clothes?"
Me: "I washed all my clothes and I had nothing dry to wear other than this."
Samantha: "No. You are going to see someone today. I know it. Tell me who is the girl."
Me: (I don't like to see anyone other than Nancy, but I don't want to tell you.) "No, I am not going to see anyone."
Alexander: "I know that you are going to see someone in the store. She is Sarah (the name of the store was Sarah's).
Me: OK. Let's go there to see if she is there or not.
Samantha: You are like a groom today. You should definitely see her there.


I forgot to throw my trash bag away, and I mistakenly brought it with me to the store. I put it in the trash can near the store, and Samantha noticed me. "Did he take that trash with him?" she told Nancy and made me very embarrassed. I didn't want Nancy to know that. It just forgot that because I was excited to see Nancy.

We shopped some grocery items from the store. I bought some fruits and some other things. In the store, I looked at Nancy. She was very adorable today. I secretly took a picture of her. We were almost leaving the store that I decided to buy rice and chicken, too.

We took all our shopping items, and Nancy drove to my place because it was closer than others. Samantha was curious to see my home. She took some of my items and brought with her. I asked Nancy and Alexander to come and see my place. My house was very dirty and messy, specially the common area. Samantha asked me to show her my room. I didn't want to do that because I had washed all my cloths, and I put them all on the floor to dry. My room was in its worse condition since I moved there. They came upstairs together to see my room. Samantha was curious to see my other roommate's rooms, too. She knocked at their door. My Chinese roommate came out of the room. Samantha went to my room and closed the door! I didn't know what to say to him. I talked to him about the dryer.

Me: Do you know if the dryer works properly?
He: You should dry it twice to make it work.
Me: Twice? Do you mean two seventy minutes?
He: Yes. Did you try like that?
Me: No. I will do that.

...

Me: Actually, my friend wanted to see your room. That's why she knocked at your door. Samantha! Come out of my room. Didn't to want to see his room?

I opened the door, and my Chinese roommate saw all in my room. Samantha was hidden behind the door. She came out of there and said hello to him. Then, she looked at his room.
"It is great that you have many friends here," my Chinese roommate told me.

We came downstairs. I brought some ice-cream for them. I had almost nothing. I didn't even have enough plates or cups to put ice-cream there.

Samantha said, "I am very hungry."
"Would you like me to cook something?" I asked.
"No. Please don't do that. We are leaving now." Alexander and Nancy said.
"But I am hungry." Samantha said.

I was confused if I should cook something or one. At last, I decided to prepare something fast. I had some ready to cook veggie burgers. I put them in the microwave, and I prepared some sandwiches for everybody. They liked it. I wish I could cook something better, but I had no time, and they were hungry. It was probably the fastest way to prepare a lunch. During the lunch, I was a little nervous because I didn't want to invite them like that. I was not ready at all, and I didn't have enough plates.

"Why do you hit my feet with yours?" Samantha asked me, "You are a groom now. You are out of market! You shouldn't do that!"
I didn't notice that my shoes were close to hers until she said that.
Me: I am not a groom. I am sorry. (But you are right. I am off the market because I already have chosen Nancy, but I can't tell you.)
I looked at Nancy's face, and she has been smiling. "I was really hungry. It was a surprise that he prepared everything very fast. چقدرم زود ناهار رو آماده کرد." Nancy told Samantha. I went upstairs to find my tea pot, but I couldn't find it. I heard that Samantha said, "no girl can live in such a house. It is very dirty. At least, they could clean the surface with a vacuum cleaner." Samantha told

Nancy washed all dishes after the lunch. Then, they left my house. I really like cooking for others. It is probably one of the biggest fun things that I would like to do. I never expected to have Nancy as a guest this soon. I wanted to be completely prepared, but it happened. I don't know what would she think about me. I hope that she liked it, and I hope to invite her again for a bigger party.

Crying in Nancy's hands

Sometimes life is very unpredictable. I was with Nancy last night. I have been crying while my head was between her hands.
Me: "I am getting old, and I may not reach my dreams."
She tried to wipe my tears.
I said, "I like you, but I have bigger dreams. I feel too old to follow those dreams."
"You are not old; follow your dreams, you can get them," she said.

This was one of the weirdest dreams that I have ever had since coming to the US.

Iran's last match in World Cup

We watched the last Iran's match in our university with all friends. Nancy also joined us. I saw her, but I didn't talk to her because I didn't want other people to know about my feelings for her.

There is a dance party the end of this week, and Nancy will come. I am counting every moment to see her there. It is also a good opportunity to talk to her if possible. I wanted to talk to her today, but I thought that it was better not to be in a rush. I should meet her in person.

middle-aged woman trapped in a 24 year-old's body?

OK. Honestly, I write this because I always didn't like when Ed Sheeran seeing Taylor. I know that Ed really wanted Taylor to be his girlfriend, and Taylor friend-zoned him because he was not a perfect guy for her, but it doesn't mean that he can say whatever he wants to Taylor.

 I read in the news that Ed said Taylor is a "middle-aged woman trapped in a 24 year-old's body." I can truly understand Taylor. I was always the victim of the same thing; some people think that you are a kid, and at the same time, some others consider you as a middle-aged or an even a philosopher. It is because you are a pure person. A person who lives with his(her) heart and acts with his(her) brain. It is because you know what love is. It is because the only thing you care in the world is LOVE. Once people see you love things unconditionally and do whatever your heart says, they think that you are a kid. Once you make a decision based on your true beliefs in your mind, they consider you as a middle-age person.


In fact, you are a true perfection, and they can't see it. I know it sucks when one of your best friends condemn you on something that you are not. But know that there is always someone whom understands you Taylor.

روا باشد که آن دلدار خوش روی

رود بر گوشه ای عزلت گزیند

چو در این مردمان هرگز ندیدم

کسی را لایق عشقش بگیرند

بخواهم از خدا روزی که آید

گشاید سر و رازش برگشاید

چرا باشند چنین این خلق عالم

که کورند و کرند و ابلهانند

همان بهتر که از مردم گریزی

به تنهایی شوی اشکی بریزی

چو ماه کاملت هرگز ندیدند
هلالت را به سخره می بگیرند

Thinking of Nancy

I think about Nancy most of the time these days. I miss her, and I think about how I can meet her again and be with her. I sit down and plan when to meet her and what to tell her. I am kind of emotionally attached to her.

Taylor these days

I miss Taylor these days. Even though I like Nancy so much, and she is very far from me, I feel her. I feel her. I know, Taylor, that I found someone else that I may marry her someday, but it doesn't mean that I didn't love you. I can truly understand Taylor for being alone. She is such a perfect girl whom no man deserves her. I have a guilty feeling by not keeping my love for her. However, I feel that I am not that perfect to be with her. It is only because of this imperfect life. In a perfect life, I prefer no one over her.

I saw Taylor's new cat movie. She is (both) truly amazing. It is like the heaven with all its perfection.

Marvin and Alexander got their driver's license today

I was rainy today, but Marvin and Alexander had to take their road test. Sewyer also came with us to schedule an appointment. We went there in the morning. It was busy there today.

Marvin and Alexander got their driver's licenses today. Kids, this car was probably the best investment of my whole entire life so far. It was very useful, and I could help as many as I could. I am very happy that I have this car.

The best day with Nancy - We like each other - Downtown, Lazertag, IHOP

I was near the river that I got a call from Martin's wife.

She: We are going to go for a tango dance in downtown. Would you like to join us?
Me: Yes! I am ready for all these things.
She: Where are you now?
Me: I am in the middle of the jungle!
She: Jungle? Who is with you?
Me: Nobody! I am alone.
She: OK. Nancy is also going to come with us. Please call her and see if you can come with her. She was in campus.

I called Nancy, and she told me that she would pick Michael up and meet me in Martin's house.

I went home, and my roommate was stuck in the bathroom! He was very lucky that I came back to change my shoes; otherwise, he would stay the whole day in that bathroom. I helped him to come out of there. Then, I went to Martin's house.

Nancy still was not there. I saw her coming from far. She wore a pretty make up. It was the first time that I saw Nancy making herself that gorgeous.
Nancy: Where were you?
Me: I went to a trail near my home.
Nancy: Alone?
Me: Yes.
Nancy: You should have called me. I would come with you.

"Really??? You would come with me? This was something that I asked God. (من که از خدام بود)" I thought to myself. It was the first time that Nancy said that she would have liked to come with me alone to a place. "Does she like me? Has she worn that make up because of me? Does she know that I like her?" I thought to myself.

Michael decided to go with Martin's family, and I and Nancy went together. Thanks Michael!
Usually, I don't like to drive myself, but Nancy was different. I wanted to be like a gentleman and give her a ride. We talked to each other during the way. I tried to make her laugh as much as I could. I had a very great feeling being with her all the time. At last, we got to downtown, and we went to the event's place. Nancy had worn high heels and she couldn't walk with them very well.

Nancy: "I can't walk here. I should walk on a flat surface."
Me: "OK. Let's go from this way."

We went to the pedestrian. She was as tall as me with her high heels.

"Oh, a big dog! I scare dogs," she said and changed her way. I walked besides her, and I put my hand on her shoulder to make her feel safe. "Don't scare. They can't do anything with you." I said. I tried to pull her toward myself. I did this every time we wanted to change our direction. It was like I hugged her from the side. It had an amazing feeling to have her my besides.

There was no sign of any tango dance performance there. A world cup match show was right before we got there, and it was like everything was over. We waited for Martin. He came later. Nancy asked Michael to show the event's ad in the Internet. I saw the ad, and I noticed "cancelled" word below the title. The event was cancelled, and we had nothing to do there. I walked with Michael to see if any museum is open, but we found nothing. The only thing we found there was a private dance show in a street that police didn't allow us to enter that street. Martin's wife suggested to go to Cici's pizza. She didn't like to join the lasertag event because nobody could take care of her daughter. I, however, really wanted to experience lasertag. In addition, we were a large group and these games are fun only with friends. It was a hard to find opportunity.

We were talking toward the parking lot that Nancy said, "I can't walk with these shoes!"
Me: Do you want me to hug you!
Nancy: No. I can walk myself :)

She was very adorable. I really wanted to hug her even if it was for a few seconds.

We were in the parking lot that she said, "I can't walk even a single step with this shoe."
"OK. Let me hug you!" I said, and I got both of her arms with my hands for a few seconds, and I pretended that I wanted to hug her.
Nancy: NOooooooo.
She got excited, and she made her body stiff so that I can't move her. I didn't want to hug her that time. I wanted to see her reaction. I made her blush. I put my hand on her shoulder again for a few seconds. When I removed my hand, she put her hand on my shoulder for the first time. It doesn't last more than a second, but it was the most amazing experience I have ever had. "She loves me. She likes me as much as I love her. I can't believe it." I thought to myself. After this, I wanted to hug her. I wanted to get her in my hands, and tell her I love you. We had a few steps to my car, and four times I wanted to say this to her: "Nancy I love you very much. very much." But we got there before I could tell her. That sentence was in my heart, but it never came to my tongue.

We were alone in the car again. I talked to her the entire way. We went to that Kroger gas station to fill the gas tank of my car. Nancy was hungry. So, we went to the store. Nancy suggested to buy some string cheese because she liked it so much. I didn't know what string cheese is. It turned out that I liked it.

We were supposed to get to an IHOP restaurant after lasertag to have a surprise birthday party. So, we didn't want to It was around 9 pm that we got to the lasertag place. We weren't late. Some others joined us later. Almost I people that I knew were with us that night. The place was very big. I liked the environment. I walked with Justin to see other games. He explained one of the coin games to me. Nancy was very kind to me tonight.

Lasertag was amazing. We wore strange things with a laser gun in hand. The goal was to hit team members of the other team and their base. This video explains the major concepts of the game. Nancy was in my team. I briefly hugged her in the middle of the game when she was running toward me. It was like a real sport. I really got tired after the game. I can say it was one of the best games that I have ever played. In addition, it can come with lots of improvements in the future. These games can easily replace current video games because they are more active. Our group won the game :) I was an average player. Martin's wife was the worse player! She really didn't try to play. She just had fun. Martin didn't join us because of his little daughter.

We had a surprise birthday party after the game. We went to an IHOP store. It was my first time to try this place. They gave us a separate room to have the party. I ordered a Cesar salad, but it was very bad. It was only lettuce and some sauce. I usually have a better dinner at home! I sat next to Alexander, Asante; Sawyer and Natalia were close to us. Nancy sat on the other side of the table. I didn't want to sit next to her because there were many people that I didn't know, and I didn't want anybody know about my feelings for her.

Asante shared his food with Natalia. He didn't want to eat much. Alexander teased him because of caring much about his body, and Asante said something that made me blush. "It's true that I don't have fun with this (pointing to her belly), but later I will have fun with that. If you can understand what do I mean!" he said. I got embarrassed, and Natalia couldn't stop her laughter. I would never say such a thing specially when girls are around. "These kids..." I thought to myself.

I did something that I am not proud of it. I poured pancake syrup into a glass of water, and I made an yummy drink. All friends started to imitate me. It was not good because almost nobody had ordered a drink or even a pancake. I wish they didn't do that. Martin's wife liked my drink :) When the waitress came to the room, I tried to hide my drink under the table. I don't know if she noticed lots of new drinks on the table or not. Anyway, it was something to laugh at today.

I looked at Nancy. She had ordered the same food as me. She noticed me, and she looked at me. This time her look was different. She smiled and looked me affectionately. It was close that I melt in my shoes. It was a real eye contact. It is a perfect feeling that you know someone likes you when you like her. I had never experienced such a thing before in my life. She doesn't know how grateful I am today. After dinner, we took some group pictures. I put my hand on her shoulder and caress her. I don't know if she noticed this or not, but I felt she was very close to me. Some random black guys and girls also took a picture with us.

Birthday was boring. Martin's daughter started to cry, and I made her calm. She is very lovely. I got bored, and I hugged her, and I left them for a while. At last, they decided to leave. "I will go with Martin," Nancy said. "OK. See you," I answered. "I was with you more than I expected. I can let you go!" I thought to myself. I drove my car to my home, and I was happier than any imagination. Today is over, but I will never forget it.

Spring Creek Nature Area alone

Today was a fairy-tale. All I can say is today was one of the best (if not the best) days of my life. Ironically, the beginning was not good. I went to the bathroom, and the handle got broken, and I couldn't come out of it. I was there for more than an hour. My other roommate, the Chinese guy, tried to help me. He brought me a knife, and I could open the door after fifteen minutes of struggling to find a way to open it. At last, I got free!

I went to school after that. Nobody was there, and I couldn't work on my project. So, I decided to go and walk in the trail near my home. I called Alexander and Michael to join me, but they were reluctant. I wanted to call Nancy, but I thought that it was awkward to ask her to come with me alone. So, I went there alone.

I walked for about half an hour there. I saw a possum (or another creature) for the first time from a very close distance. I should admit that I scared a little. It was a strange creature, but it was amazing.

I love being in nature. Weather was awesome. I went there after a light rain, and everything was as fresh as the heaven's air. The only problem was the mud that stuck to my shoes.

I was near the river that I got a call from Martin's wife.

My friend's son is sick :(

I called my friend in Iran to talk to him about Nancy. When I asked him how does he do, he was not good. His son had gotten an illness that none of the doctors could diagnose it so far. He had spent more than $20,000 for his medical costs, and the doctors still couldn't figure out the problem. They asked for an experiment that is not available in Iran. They need to send it to Germany to get the results, but it is not for sure.

It made me very sad today. I didn't know that his son's sickness is that serious. I had tried to contact him several times this year, but I couldn't. I didn't say anything about Nancy to him.

Iran Argentina Soccer, Ali Baba buffet, Legacy

Today was a soccer match between Iran and Argentina. There was an event there. When I got in the room, the game was started. The room was dark, and I didn't know who was there. The game was amazing. Nancy came there in the half-time. She sat far from me next to others.

The second half was even better. Iran had some chances to get scores. It was even close that Iran won the game. I shouted as loud as I could in any serious moments. I really was proud of my country's team after this match. I never expected them to play that good. It was one of the best soccer matches that I had ever enjoyed in my whole entire life.


I couldn't believe my eyes. It was 0-0 in 90th minute. It was breath-taking moments. We all expected to see the end of the game with this result. All boys and girls were screaming with any ball movements. I can't describe how amazing it was. At the end, Lionel Messi laid his egg and shoot the ball in Iran's goal. It was an unavoidable goal.


We are all get disappointed. I really didn't expect Iran to score in this game, but it was sad that they lost the match in the last minutes. Martin's wife and Nancy couldn't control their emotions and they left the room. I came out of the room with them. It was close that Nancy cry. In fact, she cried a little. She was very sad. I tried to convince her that even this score is awesome. Argentina was one of the best teams in the world and nobody expected Iran to get only one goal against it.

"Should I touch her? Why not? I like this girl. I don't want to touch any random girl. She is the person that I really care about her." I thought to myself, and I made this decision to touch her for the first time. Martin's wife came back to the room, and I asked Nancy to come back to the room. Room was still dark and they were watching the last minute when we got there. I thought that it was the best time to touch Nancy. I put my hand on her shoulder, and I whispered into her ear, "You shouldn't be sad. Argentina may even win the world cup. It won the world cup four times; they won the world cup more than the number of participation of Iran in the world cup." Then, I move my hand to the back of her neck under her hair. It was warm. It was the first time that I touched a girl. She didn't complain, and she got calm after my words. I don't know if she noticed the change in my behavior or not because everything seemed to be very normal and natural.

The game was over, and they turned the lights on. I left Nancy, and I started to talk with my male friends about the game.

Martin's wife suggested to go to Cici's pizza to eat our lunch. I was not hungry at all, but I really wanted to be with Nancy today. Some others also decided to come with us. We became a group of twenty, and we decided to go to a buffet near us. Ivor suggested this place. We went to a Mediterranean buffet called "Ali Baba." I went there with Nancy's car. I was alone with her in the car, and I had a very good feeling.

I was not hungry, and I eat one plate of Kebabs only. The food was good. We took some pictures inside the restaurant and later outside the restaurant. Nancy didn't try to avoid taking pictures with me. I put my hand on her shoulder while I was feeling that I was in the skies, and a guy took our group picture.

A group of five suggested to go to another place after that to have fun. Ivor was the boy who suggested to go to a place near Legacy shopping centers to have ice-cream. Martin's family went together, and the other guys were also went together, and I and Nancy went together. I can't describe what a perfect day it was. I was with Nancy in her car. I talked to her the whole time getting there. I made her laugh as much as I could. She was driving and I was finding the route. I felt that I could be happy more than ever with her. We bought the ice-cream, and we sat in a park near there.

We sat there, and we talked about many things. Nancy couldn't drink her smoothe, and I couldn't eat my ice-cream for the first time. It was not a real ice-cream. It could be called anything but ice-cream. I drank Nancy's smoothie tough.

We walked for a while, and we took some pictures there, and then we went back.

 I was alone with Nancy again. In the car, I asked her about her many questions to know her better. I asked her about her family, her living place, her university before joining our university, and many other things.

I even tested her in some cases.
Me: "There are some houses nearby that are like a castle. Do you like to live in castles?"
She: "I don't. I think that I like my apartment better! What about you?"
Me: "I don't care. I was in a big house last year, and I am in a condo, and I had a one-bedroom apartment before them. I feel absolutely no difference. I just need a place to sleep safe :) Someday I may live in a large castle. Who knows? But I know I don't care." (In fact, the person I live with is more important than the place.

I don't know if she understood that I tested her or not, but she passed all the tests :)