Interview day for fraternity - Treacherous

I chatted with Luna last night. I had no idea whether she was going to join ABG or not. Today was the interview day, and her name was not in the list. I just wanted to make sure she will come today for  the interview.


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Luna: "well if i didnt get in thats fine"
Me: "OK. I thought that you were interested."
[20-30 minutes gap]
Luna: "I am interested, I'll txt m... about the interview."

Then, I tried to use my sense of humor, and made fun of one of her photos.

Me: "I am so tired. going to bed. nice to talk to you. good night."
Luna:  :)

Really? She really laughed? I wished she could like me the way I like her.

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My suit was too loose! I didn't know that until today when I wanted to wear it for the interview. It was terrible, but it was the only formal cloth that I had. So, I wore it. There were two girls standing there near the door checking the list and scheduling interviews. Luna was not there. I wanted to see if Luna is coming today or not.

Me: "Can I see your list or its a private one?"
The girl: "It is private."
Me: "OK."

A boy came out of the room and she took his picture. Then, she took my picture before entering the interview room. Interview was nothing. She asked me only about the questions that I already answered in the application form. I was feeling so disappointed as I had this feeling that Luna is not going to be there. After the interview, I came out of the room.

Me: "Is it over?"
The girl: "Yes. You are free to go!"
Me: "Isn't there anything else?"
The girl: "No."
Me: "Aren't you going to take my picture?"
The girl: "Why? We already did that."
Me: "OK. I thought you take one before and one after."
The girl: (laughing) "No. One picture is enough. Why should we do that?"
Me: "I saw that you took his picture when he came out of the room."
The other girl: (laughing) "Maybe we should do that."
Me: "OK. So, bye bye."

I could hear that they were laughing about it, "it was so funny," she said to her friend. Then I started to laugh myself. It was a very stupid thing that I asked. I waited outside in the cafe to see if Luna comes or not. The interview time was over and she didn't show up. I felt very frustrated. "Why should I go to this group if she is not there?" I asked myself desperately. I lost my hope, and I left the cafe. I left the building, but I remembered that there were some discounts for cinema tickets in our university. Since I had a plan to go to a movie some time this week, I decided to go and check the discounts. I was returning from there that I saw Luna is coming from the other side of the aisle. I kept on walking to the cafe, and I sat on the closest table to prevent her seeing me in that awful loose pants. She had worn a formal dress with high hills shoes. She noticed me before I enter the cafe. I expected her to go directly to the interview room, but she came toward me. I couldn't stop smiling and hide my happiness. I came next to my table and while she was walking asked, "Where is G... room (interview room)?" I answered, "It's over there." She smiled, and changed her direction to the interview room.

I don't know what's happened to me. But in a blink of eyes, all sadness went away and a waterfall of happiness came into my heart. I know that it is not a good sign. I don't know her. She may never like me, but I really like to be with her. I have a feeling similar to Taylor's treacherous song.


Put your lips close to mine
As long as they don't touch
Out of focus, eye to eye
Till the gravity's too much
And I'll do anything you say
If you say it with your hands
And I'd be smart to walk away,
But you're quicksand

This slope is treacherous
This path is reckless
This slope is treacherous
And I, I, I like it

I can't decide if it's a choice
Getting swept away
I hear the sound of my own voice
Asking you to stay
And all we are is skin and bone
Trained to get along
Forever going with the flow,
But you're friction

This slope is treacherous
This path is reckless
This slope is treacherous
And I, I, I like it

Two headlights shine through the sleepless night
And I will get you, and get you alone
Your name has echoed through my mind
And I just think you should, think you should know
That nothing safe is worth the drive and I would
Follow you, follow you home...
I'll follow you, follow you home...

This hope is treacherous
This daydream is dangerous
This hope is treacherous
I, I, I... I, I, I... I, I, I...

Two headlights shine through the sleepless night
And I will get you, and get you alone
Your name has echoed through my mind
And I just think you should, think you should know
That nothing safe is worth the drive and I will
Follow you, follow you home...
I'll follow you, follow you home...
I'll follow you, follow you home...
I'll follow you, follow you home...

This slope is treacherous
I, I, I like it

Whirlyball game night

Tonight was the last night of ABG's rush events. I was tired, but I thought that maybe Luna be there. People were in the lobby and talking to themselves. I joined them. There was an African girl who started a conversation with me. She even asked me to go and sit next to her. It was the first time that a girl asked me to do that. We had a 15 minutes conversation before another girl joining us.

AA-Girl: "Many people here are not serious in dating. They just date for fun."
Me: "Really? I didn't know that. Why do you mean by serious?"
AA-Girl: "I mean considering a marriage or at least a long-term relationship. I am dating my boyfriend only because I wanted to marry him. Even though I can't because he is moving, but I was serious in my relationship."

Luna didn't show up. I didn't want to drive myself, so I went there in one of their cars. There was a girl in the car who talked all the time. I tried to say something between her words, but I couldn't say more than a few sentences. In fact, I could understand only 30% of their talks. It was so hard for me to follow their conversation. I still need improvement in my English.

It was interesting that the only person who played this game before was our driver who played it once in his life when he was a kid. You think that Americans use all their life facilities, but it is not true for many cases. They don't have time to do that.

The place was not that large. There were some game devices around.

This game was completely new to me. I have never heard about it before. I studied the rules hanged on the wall.

It sounded to be a fun game. There were some electric vehicles that players ride during the game, and the goal was to shoot a ball to the target. Players shouldn't use their hands to get the ball. There were some baskets to get the ball.

A cute girl who was working there came to us and explained the rules of the game.

I played two rounds with them. It was fun, but it was not easy to play. That boy was a real talent.

I came out of the court to see around.

In the way back home, that girl started to talk again. She asked me if I had fun, and I said yes. It was interesting to me that I still needed lots of attention to understand their intentions and conversation topics. Sometimes no matter how hard I was trying to understand them, I had no clue about the topic.




These days there are so many ads in the university for rush events of fraternity and sororities. In fact, every semester is like that, but this semester I noticed it, and Luna was its reason.

I got Red

I received a mail from Amazon that had a very good discount for Taylor's Red album (only 3.99$). I decided to buy it before they increase the price again! This way, Red became the first and  the only music album that I have ever bought. Good job Ms. Taylor. These days this is the only thing that I listen.
I really like "The Lucky One" It seems to me that it represents Taylor's real feelings about her current place.

First Yoga Mediation class

Jeeraj called me to go to an Indian yoga and meditation class in our university for free. It was my first yoga and meditation class. We did some yoga practices there.

Then, we sat to have and she started to play a meditation song. It was called Kirtan. It was so catchy. There were three words that everybody chanting one after another: Krishna, Rama, Hare.

It was something similar to this song:

We ate our dinner there. I was not sure whether I should eat from that food or not, and I asked Jeeraj, and he said that it is provided for students.

When I came back home, I talked to Kane about the thing that I did today, and he said, "you did many things today. You did what I can't do in more than a month. Maybe I should return to school."

Speed Friend making with ABG

I went to another ABG's rush event hoping to see Luna there. It was a speed friend making. People sat there face to face and talk for about a minute. After a minute, they move to the next person. I talked to several new people there. Luna didn't come. I can't say that I liked this event, but I can say that people are not as friendly as I would like them to be.

A busy lucky day - MS T-shirt, An Asian handicraft, first Asian writing

Microsoft guys came to our campus to get students' resumes. I stand in the line for more than an hour, and I couldn't meet that guy in person because the line was very long. I went to their talk, and it was ridiculous. The factors that they consider seeing in one candidate are not match mine at all. For example, they would like to see how many challenging courses the person took, or if he has an open-source contribution to know or know about the current news to understand that he is passionate about software. In fact, my resume with several years of experience seems to be stupid because they are looking for something else in one's resume. I won a Microsoft T-shirt in their drawing. It was a complete waste of time if I didn't win it.

Today was Asian's new year eve. So, there was a special event in the university. I went to that event. There was a game to play and win one of these handicrafts. I won, and I picked the red one in the left side of the picture.

The game was like this. They gave us some tickets to put in one of those six pictures. There were several dice that they guy toss. If the picture on the dice was the same as the picture you picked then you could win more tickets. You could get one of those handicrafts by wining six tickets.

Then, I had a chance to write my name in Asian language for the first time. I forgot to ask him what language it was. It was crowded. I wanted to write Taylor's name, but I couldn't.

There was also a music show there. People were dancing with Chinese dragons.

I wrote my name in Indian language

Many things seem to be changed this semester. In the beginning of the semester, two girls in my class came to me to form a team for the course project. Princess Jasmine is one of them. I saw her the first semester, and she was in some of my classes, but I have never talked to her. She is an Indian girl who looks like Disney's Princess Jasmine. She likes me. Today, we talked about languages in India. She knows several languages. She showed me how to write my name in Indian language, and I showed her how to write her name in Persian. (picture is fake)

"I was in all of your classes since the first semester," another girl said. "My name is Dally." It seems that something really changed in me. I am less shy and introverted, and it may be the reason that they feel more comfortable with me.

I am also trying to initiate conversation with strangers whom I have some contact with them. I met a very good Muslim girl in my TA office. She is also a TA here, and I had a 30-minutes conversation with her. I also talked to several new TAs in my office. They all know me know. I think that my efforts for changing myself is paying off. It was definitely required. I don't want to lose chance of getting my girl of dreams by being shy and not knowing how to talk to her when I met her.