Going to new home!

I packed my everything up today, and I brought some of them to my new house. I love my current way of leaving. All I have can be fit in one car! I don't have anything. I live life like a passenger. I would like to live like this for the rest of my life if I can :)

Another guy brought his stuff there. Who is this mysterious guy?

A few days ago, I talked to Raina. "I won't see you again the next week because I am leaving," I said. Raina wanted to start crying, but she thought to herself that she didn't used to see me that much. "Well done Woody!" I thought to myself. Raina was a super emotional girl, and I really loved her, but I really tried hard to keep my distance from her. I knew that I need to leave this house sooner or later, and this may cause her a great pain if she gets attached to me. Hopefully, everything went well.

 I just want to say something about Americans (at least my roommate.) A few weeks ago, I talked to him about not having fund for the summer and not getting any internships. I never talked about getting a TA job for the summer to test him. Sometimes I test people to understand them better. He acted like the most stupid man in the world.


I wanted to leave my current room as soon as possible, but he supposed to tell me when the other guy will come to occupy the room. He forgot about it. I was very busy these days, and I couldn't meet in the house because I usually returned home very late in the night. He left me a note that I owed him a courtesy by not telling him the time I am going to leave. In fact, he was the person who needed to tell me because I already got my new room. I signed the contract for May 10th, but I could leave earlier to save some money. I didn't pay the rent in the first day of the month because he asked me to do that when we set my leaving day. Anyway, he thought that I didn't get any fund, and I wanted to stay there without paying him. I hated this. I was there for around nine months. Paying was not a problem for me, even if it was the case, he could help. All he cared was the rent of these ten days. He also wrote his note imperative asking me to pay him the rent. My point is, American way of thinking of money is sometimes not human at all. Money is important, but people should come first. I always paid him on-time, and I am a super responsible person. He already know me, but his feeling of me not going to pay my rent forced him to be cruel for not any valid reason. I decided not to go back there again only because of this reason.

I unfriended Camellia

I had a FB chat with Camellia tonight that made me unfriend her from FB.

Me: "Would you please let me to upload our group pictures in FB?"
She: "No problem. It is better to ask others as well."
Me: (I felt offended, why does she ask me to ask others? Why is she trying to tell me what to do? I would do whatever I would like to do. OK, let's be friendly and playful) But others are not spoiled :) (Sorry, no suitable meaning in English for the word I used.) بقیه اینقدر ناز ندارن
She: "What u mean ?!"
Me: (Oh, my God. Why is she trying to talk to me this way? Are we friends? Let's fix it) "I mean asking to take down pictures. Isn't it obvious?"
She: "Its obvious ... I think u should talk more politely .. Isnt it obvious ???"
Me: (This time, I really felt offended. Does she say that I am impolite? I tried to be friendly. I didn't say anything rude. I think that she thinks I know that she likes me, and she doesn't want to go so fast, but I don't care. But maybe I am doing something wrong. Let's ask.) What do u mean ?!
She: its obvious ... Should i explain ??
Me: (She is confusing. Why doesn't she want to talk about it. If I did something wrong, and she considers me as a friend why doesn't she tell me. What's wrong? It seems that we can't understand each other. Wait a minute. Let's answer her question to see what's her answer)  yes please.
She: I dont have time to do that ...

Me: (I can't continue this conversation anymore. She probably has time, but she doesn't want to talk about it. Either she is laying or she is not friendly; we can't talk to each other.)

After a long deliberation (I mean 7 hours), I decided to apologize, and finish our friendship.

Me: This is how I talk. If this causes any resentments to you, please forgive me.
She: No problem.

I really thought about it. I didn't want to take a hasty decision. I unfriended her after several hours of thinking. We probably can't be friends because we can't understand the way we talk. I remembered when I noticed her for the first time in the birthday party of Martin's daughter. Then we talked for more than three hours, and we had some time together. My feeling was that she had some boyfriends before me, and she expects me to act like someone who had many girlfriends.

I remembered Nancy. I uploaded our photos to FB, and she didn't like it. She never said anything rude to me. She never even complained about it. Even my friends and my family members' comments on a photo of me and Nancy made me really embarrassed; there was absolutely nothing between us, but they thought that she was my girlfriend. Nancy never complained about this, but I think that I owe her because of my friend's behavior.

Last day of the semester and thunderstorm

The professor whom I am TA for asked me to come to the campus to finish final grading of the students for this semester. It was rainy, and the chances of storm were high. I went to the university when the weather was clear. It was blissful. I opened my car's window and enjoyed every moment of driving to school.

When I was preparing the final grades, a very severe storm came around. I looked at the window, and it was all rain; It was unbelievable; it was just like movies.

I ran out of my room to see what's happening. Alarm sound was surrounded the whole building, "it's thunderstorm, take shelter." I saw Henry when he came out of his lab to take a shelter in stairways. I went out of the building to run in storm. I was all drenched in a few seconds. It was, however, amazing. Henry laughed at me, and he didn't come out to run with me. Ella had a test at the same time. I took a picture of her when she was trying to focus on her exam sheet. She still doesn't know about it :)

I went to my professor's office to finish grading. The rest of the day, I spent to enter grades.

Career fair near downtown

Jeeraj called me in the morning and asked me to give him a ride to a career fair near downtown. I don't like to drive that far, but I thought that it might be his only chance to get a job, and this is the least thing that I can do for him. So, I accepted. I drove there.

It had different feelings of life when I got there. It had feelings of adult life instead of young people's life in the university. "I missed this life, a life of a professional living with professional people around," I thought to myself, but I changed my mind a few minutes later; "I don't want to have a busy cruel life. I like my current life better," I thought to myself.

Career fair doesn't have much to offer. It had only a few positions related to our experience.

There was a bright old entrepreneur woman whom her business was to help people have a better linkedin account. I talked to her. Other than her, I could find almost nobody interesting to talk to. We left there empty-handed.

Jeeraj gave his resume to some other companies, but I didn't do anything. I got two notebooks from USPS to gift it to my future girlfriends.

Feeling depressed again

I wrote this post, and I wrote 10 points that why I feel depressed again, but the post content deleted automatically by Blogspot because of some bugs. I am not going to write it again because I believe that it contained too much personal content that was not suitable for public sharing. I should just say that some important things happened in my life (not pleasant ones) that I don't write it here, and it may have a great impact on my future decisions. Feeling depressed again, I found another chess website to play and forget my feelings.

Frozen Movie night

Martin's wife called us when we were sitting in the cafe. She invited us to go to a movie tonight. She suggested to see Frozen because of her little daughter, and I accepted. All others were also decided to go there together. We got to the cinema. I saw Camellia. "What is she doing here?" I asked myself. I didn't want to get close to her; so, I didn't shake hands with her, and I kept my distance. I was weird, and she noticed this, but like always I don't care.

She bought greengages for us. I eat two of them. It has been more than two years that I hadn't greengages. Sometimes it is like a nostalgia to eat something that you used to eat in your home country.

The movie was awesome. The graphic and effects were prefect. I loved it. The story, however, was not that good. There were my questions unanswered in the story. I don't want to talk about it. I laughed all over the movie. I really liked it.

Sorry for being impolite, but the funniest part of the movie for me was when the boy brought Anna to that stone family. I thought that they should be surprised or consider this as an strange event, but they got excited shouting "He brought a girl with him!!!" It was like he does this all the time bringing a girl to have a gang-bang.

The moon was great tonight. I noticed that I haven't seen the moon for a while. I forgot to look at pretty sky up there and thank the creator who has given me this prefect life.

Unpleasant conversation in Starbucks

We sat in a Starbucks shop, and we talked about business in the US. They talked about girls and made me very sad. "It has been two years that you are in the US, and you didn't have sex? Are you a human?" Marvin said. "At least do someone to keep yourself wet." Micheal said. I didn't want to talk to them about this at all. I changed the topic several times, and they came back to it again and again. 

I was very regretful spending my time with them. I value love over sex like Taylor. I value living a fair life over seducing girls to have sex with you and leave them. I did my best to get a girlfriend whom I can marry someday, but I couldn't. I really like Ann and even Luna. I know that I was wrong about them now, but at that time, I really wanted to date them to know them. I could even be with Ella if she was interested, but she wasn't. It is hard to explain it to others. People can see your outside, and they don't see your inside. 

I saw an interesting thing there. A boy was outside, and a girl was inside, and it was like that the girl put her head over the boy's shoulder. It happened several times, and I really laughed at it. It was probably the best distraction to forget their unpleasant talk.