What was wrong

I was very depressed from the morning. I had a bad dream last night. I had come back to my home country to see my family, and I had forgotten to get a visit appointment. I was in the same dilemma that I woke up, and I found myself in my room in the US again. I had this dream many times with slightly differences. I don't know if it was the reason, or it was just because of missing Shani. I came to the university, and I started to listen to sad music tracks.

I met a girl similar to Talory with another boy today. I don't know if she was her or not. It seems that the same happened to her, too. She may have some doppelgangers like Ann. I did a bad thing that I followed her toward the parking lot, and I don't know if she noticed me or not. It is terrible if she had been seen there. I still don't know if she was Talory or not. This girl was a bad girl. I found Talory a good girl the other day. I hope to see the same good girl tomorrow. I am a little scared to see her because of this parking thing. You know what, I was very upset, and I didn't know what I was doing.

I decided to see what I did wrong with all the girls whom I saw. So, I tried to revise my knowledge again, so I went to Youtube again.

This video made me better today because I found my mistakes. This video is complete concise guide that I had to watch it at least ten times to understand all the things explained there. Hopefully, I have a chance to talk to Ann and Talory. I know Talory is not my type of girl, but I really liked her. I saved some of her pictures to see every day.

At last, I figured out what was wrong with getting FB contacts. I noticed that I forgot most of them because I hadn't practiced them for a long time. In fact, I made many mistakes. I regret that I didn't review them before asking Alison. She liked me, but I was weird. I made several mistakes. I didn't engage her. I didn't make jokes. I kept it very short. I asked for her FB contact, and I ran away right after that. In addition, I didn't set anything with her to ask her out later. I wanted her to accept my request, but I never expected it. I didn't show enough confidence. She could be mine if I hadn't done many of these mistakes. Unfortunately, I can't see her in the near future.

I saw Shani in gym tonight, and it made me to feel upset again. I didn't want to loose a friend like this. She was very nice to me. Her selfishness and my inexperience with girls sacrificed this friendship. I wanted to go to her and talk to her, but it could make it worse. In addition, I had nothing else to tell her. She was the one who should have come to me to fix everything. I never liked her the way I liked Ann or Luna or Alison, but she could be my girlfriend if she was honest when she said that she liked me. She was the first girl that I told her that I loved her, and I wanted to be with her, and she said the same to me. Anyway, this story is over, but I hope to be friends again one day.