Missing Shani after the trip

I got depressed after we left Houston. My mobile died, and I couldn't listen to any other music. I listened to some Enrique's music (its greatest hit on spotify), and it was like changing my mood every second. I didn't know what feeling I should have for Shani. I thought about every moment and whatever she said. After all I did for her, she said that she wasn't respectful to me only because my behavior got weird. Was she crazy? Was that all my mistake? She definitely wasn't worse it at all. I knew it, but why did she act like that? I was very confused and upset for all the things happened. I lowered myself to get a girl, and all I see is dishonesty and disrespect. What did I do wrong? I could go and get any girl better than her. When I was leaving the car, Marvin said, "I knew why you look upset. You wanted to have your girlfriend with you in this trip. Didn't you?" He was right. It was probably the reason of my depression.

I went near her house, and I sat there for about half an hour to think about these things.

I decided not to sell myself that cheap to the rest of my life. I would never find my perfect girl, but it hurts more to be wasted on an imperfect one.