A friend's house

We went to a friend's house tonight for dinner. Henry and Natalia were there, too. A friend of Henry who came from Seattle was also there, but I didn't like him at all; so, I didn't talk to him much. I loved Natalia's pottage.

A Chinese girl played guitar, and an Indian boy sang Indian songs with the music. We listened to them for about an hour. She sang two Taylor's song, too. An American boy who was in love with Taylor said, "Oh my god. She is my Taylor!"
"Your Taylor??? So, what am I doing here in the US? She is everybody's Taylor," I thought to myself.
I wish I could sing there. I may do that one day. Then they played some music from Youtube, too. I liked this one, but I can't remember its name.

It was a good night overall. I didn't let Natalia to get closer to me, and I think that she got it.

Marvin's birthday

Marvin contacted me several times to join his birthday party. I had tried to avoid Nancy's boyfriend all the time, but I think that I am completely over it; so, I accepted Marvin's offer to go for his birthday. He had invited many friends, and the house was completely full. Among them, there were two pretty Indian girls. Marvin said that he liked one of them and that's why he invited her, but he was too shy to tell her. I tried to give him some suggestions, but I was not probably the right guy for this.

I didn't talk to Nancy's boyfriend, and I was completely relaxed about it. It was almost 11:00 pm that they started to dance. As soon as they opened the bottle of wine, I left the place. I didn't want to experience the same bad feelings that I got after that Bollywood dance night.

Does she like me?

I sent her several texts, and I got no answer. I wonder if she likes me or not. I hate when she doesn't answer me. Today she said that her phone was broken, and that was the reason that she couldn't answer me.

She: When can I bring your bowl?
Me: Tomorrow, and if you are not busy, I would like to go out tomorrow.
She: I am sorry; so asked me late, and somebody reserved me :) What's up?
Me: I didn't ask you late. You hadn't answered me earlier. How long are you reserved for?
She: Until Monday.
Me: :(  Who reserved you? Could you cancel it?
She: What's your plan?
Me: I don't have a specific plan. I would like to go to a friend's house. It's pot lck dinner. Could I talk to you tonight?
She: About what?
Me: If you are not tired, I can come there. About important topics! :)
She: No. I am not home. What are you going to talk about?
She: What is this important topic?
Me: (Is she crazy or she is playing with me? Doesn't she know? I already told her several times. Is it an excuse? What is in her mind?) Since you can't make it, and we can't talk, it's nothing. Whenever you got free, let's go out and talk.
She: Ok

The whole week I tried to contact her, and she didn't reply, and now she has an excuse to avoid me. I can't understand her at all. Did she lie to me the other day? Does she really like me? I think that I am making a wrong decision about her.

Ice-cream day - Hoping to see Alison

Seeing Alison yesterday, and not hearing from Shani made me think about Alison more than before. Why shouldn't I know her? She is a million times better than Shani. I went to another welcome week event with a friend hoping to see Alison there. In the line, there was a girl next to us who had a very unique hair style. She was not my type of girl, but I wanted to know her. However, since my friend was there, and he wanted to talk to me, I didn't talk to that girl.

I remembered that Natalia likes ice-cream. I invited her to come and join us, but she was busy.

I got an ice-cream for her full of toppings the way she likes it, but she had gone home when I called her. Later, I felt that she likes me, and I shouldn't have called her tonight. I don't want to disturb her at all. She is not my type of girl at all. 

First conversation with Alison - Helping a friend rest of the day

I contact Shani several times, and I got no answer. I was going to see a friend in Visitor Center that I ran into Alison. I saw her coming from the far toward me. "Ooooh, it's her. Wow. Let me talk to her. Today or never," I thought to myself.

Me: Hi. Do you know where visitor center is?
She: Hi. I think you should go straight, and it's on your left.
Me: Where? over there?.... (Just trying to see her more!!!)
She: Yes.
Me: Is it in this building?
She: Yes. It's in this building.
Me: OK. Thanks.

I know where visitor center is. I just wanted to talk to her. She was super gorgeous. I less than 30 seconds talking to her, I got a fantastic feeling.

I helped rest of the day helping my friend to rent a car, and we talked in the pub, and we ate something there. I was very busy today, but he really needed help; so, I helped him the whole day. He is going to study in UTArlington.

New year and many new girls :)

I met Ann today again. She was with one of her new friends. She is still awesome to me. I can recognize her among thousand of the girl by just one look (the same as Taylor!). Since she has a boyfriend, I didn't want to bother her at all, so we didn't talk.

I can say that I saw at least 6 new interesting girls this year. Last year, I just had Ann and Luna, but it seems that this year is very different.

I saw Alison playing ping pong tonight

I texted Shani today to have a meeting.

Me: If your color has dried, let's go out today.
She: I am sorry. I have a guest this weekend.
Me: So, why did you say that you don't know the reason of change you want in your life :0
She: No, it was unrelated.
Me: If your guest is a boy it was related, but you didn't know it!

She didn't reply my text anymore. If I was a girl, and I liked a boy, I would definitely reply him to make him sure that he was the only boy in my life, but she didn't do this. She didn't say anything last night, too. Our conversation made me very depressed today. I really wanted to talk to her, but I have to wait for more than a week now. I hate waiting for unknown unexpected things.

I saw Alison tonight. She came with her friend. Let's call her Alison's friend. They played ping pong. I sat outside of the place, and I watched her playing with her friend.

"I am not wrong about her," I thought, "she is one of the most amazing girls in the world. She is just awesome. Look at her beautiful smile. Shani is nothing like her. Nothing even close to her. Look at her beautiful happy and free soul. I wish she was my girlfriend."

I watched her for more than half an hour. I wanted to go inside, and talk to her or her friend, but I thought that it was very unfair. "I already told Shani that I liked her. The only remained step is to go out for one more time, and we can start a relationship. It's unfair to go and talk to another girl. It's true that she is awesome, but... If things didn't work between me and Shani, then I can find her here again. She probably loves ping pong, and I can see her again here. In addition, I am depressed today; I don't want her to see me like this," I thought to myself, and it prevented me to even go and talk to her.

I went after them unintentionally, and I watched them from the very far going to the on-campus houses. I knew that many new students are living there. I hope to see her again. She is better than any other girl in our university. Thinking of her and seeing her made me to be happy again. I forgot my depression, and I was full of good feelings again.

(The time I write this post, I think that I was very stupid that day. Wait for the rest of the story!)