Alexander: "Who?"
Martin's wife: "Camellia."
We all shocked. I really didn't expect it. She talked to me a few weeks ago, and I did my best to guide her, but she made this decision without consulting with anybody. I knew that she didn't like her situation, but I didn't know that this may make her to quit her PhD. She doesn't have any funding now, and her Visa status will be invalid if she can't find any other position. In addition, it is almost impossible to get funding from other departments. She needs to pay out of her pocket, and I know that it is very hard to live like that here in the US.
We talked until 3 am about her. Everybody tried to guide her what to do now. I couldn't say anything. I just stayed there to see if we can find any solution. It is one of my weak points that I can't see anybody in trouble. We didn't get any conclusion. It was late in the night, and we all should go to school tomorrow.
Since she doesn't want to go home alone, I decided to drive my car beside her car. In the parking she asked, "Why aren't you in my FB friend list?"
Me: "It is because I unfriended you."
She: "I was looking at my friend's list, and I couldn't find you. I had been unfriended many, and I thought that I unfriended you mistakenly. It thought that oh my God, how can I tell him to ... Whaaaatt??? You unfriended me? Why???"
Me: Sorry, but it was because of that conversation.
She: I sent you another friend request. Please add me. What??? I didn't say anything. Sometimes misunderstandings come in text messages. But we are talking to each other.
Me: I know. I am sorry. I just thought it doesn't work like that.
She: OK. So, don't accept my friend request. I would take it back...
Me: (very slowly) As you wish.
She: No. Please add me. I am pretty sure that it was a misunderstanding.
Me: OK. I will add you again.
We went to the campus together. In our way, she completely forgot to turn into the university road. She missed it. She was really in another world in her thoughts.
She: Where are you coming?
Me: To your home. You told me that you would liked to prepare tea.
She: Me? No. I gonna go to bed... But would you like to walk around the campus?
Me: Yes. Why not.
We walked together. She several times asked me to add her again to my FB.
"You know if it was anybody else, I would never ask him to do that, but for those whom are important to me, I would like to have them in my friends list," she said.
"Why am I important to her? I barely know her. I just saw her several times, and I still don't know who she is." I thought to myself.
"You know, if you talk to me like that now, there is no problem. I didn't know you that time well. But it is OK now for me. I think that you also know me. I don't want to make you unhappy at all." she said.
She was very depressed tonight. I tried to help her as much as I could. I know that she likes me, but I think that she is very different from me. She has born and raised in a very rich family. She doesn't care about the money at all. Even though she lives on campus, she has got the expensive parking permit. She is also average-looking. It doesn't mean that I don't like average-looking girls. In fact, they are better in many aspects, but my point is she doesn't have anything that attracts me. She also made a big mistake by showing her interest to me very early.
We talked for more than an hour. It was almost near the morning prayer time that I left her. "Thank you for talking to me. I feel better :)" She sent me when I got home.
I don't know what will happen in the future, but I am not against being her friend to know her. I know that she is far from my perfect girl, but at least she likes me.
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