I drove my car to a body shop near my house. As far as I figured out in the Internet, they just needed to change the hood and bumper. I checked the price, and it was less than 500$. I showed my car to the body shop to ask them if they can repair it without using insurance. "Oh man, it's bad. At least 2000$, I say 3000$ costs to repair it. It's better to call your insurance." He said. I called insurance, and asked them to come and see the car. I asked the body shop owner to call me whenever they came. He said, as soon as the adjuster came and saw your car, we start working on it. It takes one week to ten days to fix it. I decided to leave my car there to be fixed.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
One bad day - Second accident
The beginning of the day was very bad. I missed my morning prayer because I slept late in the night. It made me really sad. It was rare that I missed a prayer since I came to the US.
I could go out of my house today after several days. It was still cold, but most of the ices were melted. I went shopping in the morning. I was unhappy because of my car. A small part of it was fallen down the night before these three days. I don't know what had been happened to it, but it was not really important. I went shopping in the morning, and I went to school after that. I tried to find Ann in the cafe or library, but she was not there. I missed my class because I was in my office, and I completely forgot that I had a class.
The whole day, I tried to finish grading the projects. One student was really worried about failing in this course. I calculated his grade by the end of the day, and I told him that he would pass the course. I came desperately to the lab, but she didn't come today at all. I felt depressed again. I stayed in my office and played chess. I also finished grading those project papers. It was 10:45 pm that I decided to go home, and I was tired.
It was cold. As soon as I came out of the department building, I started shaking because of the cold. I walked to my car, and I saw that the front windshield glass was completely frozen. I tried to clean it, but it was impossible. It was that cold that I couldn't even stay out of the car for a minute. I stayed inside my car and turned the air conditioner on. It couldn't really help. It takes time for my car heater to work. I didn't know what to do. I decided to call Martin to help me. Suddenly, I remembered that I had some water in the trunk. I opened the trunk, and I found the gallon. It was frozen and solid like a stone. There was, however, a little water on the top of the gallon. I spilled it on the windshield and tried to clean it. I couldn't clean it completely, but it was OK. At least, I could see my front now. I drove toward home.
In the way, all of the sudden, the front windshield glass became less clear and less clear. I was in the middle of a 4-way, and I stayed behind the signal lights. I slide down the windows to see my sides. I could see only blurry lights in my front. I saw the signal turned green. I didn't know what to do at all. In one hand, I couldn't see my front. On the other hand, I was in the middle of a 4-way. I decided to drive very slowly toward a gas station in the corner of the 4-way. It was the worse decision that I could take in that moment. As soon as I turned toward the other street, I became completely blind. There was no light in the other street. It was only darkness. I could see absolutely nothing in my front. I watched my sides, and I tried to align my car toward the road that I turned into it. I was in the middle of the 4-way, and I became completely hopeless. I couldn't turn back, and I couldn't see my front. Any moment the other cars could come from the side and hit my car.
I drove very slowly to keep my car away of the other cars. All of the sudden, my car hit a column in the middle of the road. I couldn't believe it. It was another accident. I didn't know what to do. I just reversed the gear and drove my car toward the other side of the street. I still could see nothing. I turned to the first street. I found a light there. I took off my car to see what's happened. When I saw the damage, I just got disappointed. "I lose this car in these cold days because of nothing." I thought. It was very cold. I tried to take a picture, but I couldn't keep my hand on the camera because of the cold. I cleaned the front windshield again, and I drove home.
At night, I was very sad and disappointed. "I really didn't want this to happen. I shouldn't have stay that late in the university. I shouldn't have drive my car at all. Why didn't I stay behind the signal to clean the windshield there? Could possibly somebody hit me there? What if I hit a pedestrian?" I thought to myself. I sent SMS to Martin to talk to him and became a little relaxed, but it really didn't help me. I cried a little, but I couldn't sleep until 4 A.M. because of those thoughts. I just wanted to figure out how could I prevent it, and what else could I do, but I couldn't do anything. What's happened is happened, and I can't return to the time before the accident. I tried to see accident location in Google Maps, and I tried to figure out how much does it cost to fix it.
I could go out of my house today after several days. It was still cold, but most of the ices were melted. I went shopping in the morning. I was unhappy because of my car. A small part of it was fallen down the night before these three days. I don't know what had been happened to it, but it was not really important. I went shopping in the morning, and I went to school after that. I tried to find Ann in the cafe or library, but she was not there. I missed my class because I was in my office, and I completely forgot that I had a class.
The whole day, I tried to finish grading the projects. One student was really worried about failing in this course. I calculated his grade by the end of the day, and I told him that he would pass the course. I came desperately to the lab, but she didn't come today at all. I felt depressed again. I stayed in my office and played chess. I also finished grading those project papers. It was 10:45 pm that I decided to go home, and I was tired.
It was cold. As soon as I came out of the department building, I started shaking because of the cold. I walked to my car, and I saw that the front windshield glass was completely frozen. I tried to clean it, but it was impossible. It was that cold that I couldn't even stay out of the car for a minute. I stayed inside my car and turned the air conditioner on. It couldn't really help. It takes time for my car heater to work. I didn't know what to do. I decided to call Martin to help me. Suddenly, I remembered that I had some water in the trunk. I opened the trunk, and I found the gallon. It was frozen and solid like a stone. There was, however, a little water on the top of the gallon. I spilled it on the windshield and tried to clean it. I couldn't clean it completely, but it was OK. At least, I could see my front now. I drove toward home.
In the way, all of the sudden, the front windshield glass became less clear and less clear. I was in the middle of a 4-way, and I stayed behind the signal lights. I slide down the windows to see my sides. I could see only blurry lights in my front. I saw the signal turned green. I didn't know what to do at all. In one hand, I couldn't see my front. On the other hand, I was in the middle of a 4-way. I decided to drive very slowly toward a gas station in the corner of the 4-way. It was the worse decision that I could take in that moment. As soon as I turned toward the other street, I became completely blind. There was no light in the other street. It was only darkness. I could see absolutely nothing in my front. I watched my sides, and I tried to align my car toward the road that I turned into it. I was in the middle of the 4-way, and I became completely hopeless. I couldn't turn back, and I couldn't see my front. Any moment the other cars could come from the side and hit my car.
I drove very slowly to keep my car away of the other cars. All of the sudden, my car hit a column in the middle of the road. I couldn't believe it. It was another accident. I didn't know what to do. I just reversed the gear and drove my car toward the other side of the street. I still could see nothing. I turned to the first street. I found a light there. I took off my car to see what's happened. When I saw the damage, I just got disappointed. "I lose this car in these cold days because of nothing." I thought. It was very cold. I tried to take a picture, but I couldn't keep my hand on the camera because of the cold. I cleaned the front windshield again, and I drove home.
At night, I was very sad and disappointed. "I really didn't want this to happen. I shouldn't have stay that late in the university. I shouldn't have drive my car at all. Why didn't I stay behind the signal to clean the windshield there? Could possibly somebody hit me there? What if I hit a pedestrian?" I thought to myself. I sent SMS to Martin to talk to him and became a little relaxed, but it really didn't help me. I cried a little, but I couldn't sleep until 4 A.M. because of those thoughts. I just wanted to figure out how could I prevent it, and what else could I do, but I couldn't do anything. What's happened is happened, and I can't return to the time before the accident. I tried to see accident location in Google Maps, and I tried to figure out how much does it cost to fix it.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Severe whether condition and three days stuck in home
These days are crazy cold. The university is closed because of the ice. I just stayed in my home to work on my project. This week is my last week and I can do some rest from the next week. This project is super boring. I just work on it for one hour and I can't continue. So, I play chess and start to work on it. I got Sleep deprivation these days, and I couldn't sleep well. One night, I stayed up to 4 A.M, and the other night I was awake until 6 A.M.
The last day, I went out to take some pictures and enjoy winter.
There was also electricity problem in our house. I plugged off my laptop to prevent any possible damage to it. So, I couldn't work enough on my project. We didn't have electricity for a few hours and I got some sleep. Henry also called me and said that many places didn't have electricity these days. Some of our friends got a hotel room to stay nights there because of it. I really wanted them to come to my house, but they already rented that room. I couldn't even see Reyna these days because of the weather. Her father couldn't go out to bring her here.
The last day, I went out to take some pictures and enjoy winter.
There was also electricity problem in our house. I plugged off my laptop to prevent any possible damage to it. So, I couldn't work enough on my project. We didn't have electricity for a few hours and I got some sleep. Henry also called me and said that many places didn't have electricity these days. Some of our friends got a hotel room to stay nights there because of it. I really wanted them to come to my house, but they already rented that room. I couldn't even see Reyna these days because of the weather. Her father couldn't go out to bring her here.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
So many emotions after meeting Ann
Tonight, I experience so many emotions after I talked to Ann and came home. I couldn't sleep until 3 am. I couldn't stop thinking about her. In my fantasy, I was playing with her hair while she was resting in my arms. She can be my girlfriend. She really can. I really have feelings for this girl. It has been years that I couldn't trust any girl, but she... she is different.
I didn't know that meeting her in person causes an emotional surge in my inside. Talking to Ann was just like a storm in me. I listened to this song so many times tonight:
Then, I remembered those days when I saw Taylor for the first time. I watched some video clips of her when she was only 16. How awesome was she. I just wanted to know how different could Taylor and Ann be. They are very different. Taylor is awesome in one way, and Ann in another way. Taylor is very far from me, but Ann is here. I just can stare into her eyes now, while I may never see Taylor.
I didn't know that meeting her in person causes an emotional surge in my inside. Talking to Ann was just like a storm in me. I listened to this song so many times tonight:
Then, I remembered those days when I saw Taylor for the first time. I watched some video clips of her when she was only 16. How awesome was she. I just wanted to know how different could Taylor and Ann be. They are very different. Taylor is awesome in one way, and Ann in another way. Taylor is very far from me, but Ann is here. I just can stare into her eyes now, while I may never see Taylor.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
I met Ann in our department
I go to my university cafe and library every day to see Ann and talk to her. Everyday, I try to look at my best, and find her alone and ask her out. Today, one super strange thing happened. I couldn't find Ann in the library and cafe again and I went back to my department to work on my project. I decided to check the lab first. Unbelievably, I saw Ann in our department's computer lab. It was weird because I have never seen her before in this lab. I decided to sit there to have a chance to talk to her.
One of her friends sat next to me. I asked her about the lab, and she said that it was our class every Monday and Wednesday. I couldn't believe it. Every Monday and Wednesday she was in our department, and I could see her for a very valid reason and develop a great friendship during the whole semester, but I didn't know that. I was thinking about these things that I saw that Ann raised her hand up. She had a question. "Oh my god, I can go and help her." I thought to myself.
I helped Ann with her project. I tried to stay cool, but I was nervous. I don't know if she understood this or not. For the first time, I could see her that close. She was even better than what I had in my mind. I tried to explain the project to her, and how to solve it. I also looked into her eyes a few times, and I saw how amazing are they. I couldn't believe it. She was here all the time, and I was looking for her in some other places. I answered her questions and went back to my desk.
I tried to ask her friend some questions to know more about the course they are enrolled in, but her friend thought that I might be interested in her (not Ann) and she tried to run away. I wanted to talk to Ann after the class, but she left the class with one of her friends and I thought that it might not be a good idea to show her my interest now. At last, I could talk to my beautiful lovely girl. She left the lab without even looking at me. During our conversation she was so serious and she didn't even try to be playful with me. So, I thought that she may really didn't like me. By the way, I had a very good reason to talk to her next time that I could see her. I could ask her about her project. This made me so happy.
One of her friends sat next to me. I asked her about the lab, and she said that it was our class every Monday and Wednesday. I couldn't believe it. Every Monday and Wednesday she was in our department, and I could see her for a very valid reason and develop a great friendship during the whole semester, but I didn't know that. I was thinking about these things that I saw that Ann raised her hand up. She had a question. "Oh my god, I can go and help her." I thought to myself.
I helped Ann with her project. I tried to stay cool, but I was nervous. I don't know if she understood this or not. For the first time, I could see her that close. She was even better than what I had in my mind. I tried to explain the project to her, and how to solve it. I also looked into her eyes a few times, and I saw how amazing are they. I couldn't believe it. She was here all the time, and I was looking for her in some other places. I answered her questions and went back to my desk.
I tried to ask her friend some questions to know more about the course they are enrolled in, but her friend thought that I might be interested in her (not Ann) and she tried to run away. I wanted to talk to Ann after the class, but she left the class with one of her friends and I thought that it might not be a good idea to show her my interest now. At last, I could talk to my beautiful lovely girl. She left the lab without even looking at me. During our conversation she was so serious and she didn't even try to be playful with me. So, I thought that she may really didn't like me. By the way, I had a very good reason to talk to her next time that I could see her. I could ask her about her project. This made me so happy.
Beautiful Autumn here
Here Autumn is so beautiful. The trees have many different colors. I really enjoy walking in the street and around campus.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
blonde girl in the parking lot
I saw a blonde girl in our department. It was weird because as I said all awesome girls study in other departments :) She was with another boy. I decided to go and talk to her. She got separated with that boy in the parking lot.
Me: "Hi. Do you know where parking lot J is?"
She: "Hi. No." She looked around, but she couldn't find it. "I think that you can go to that building and ask them."
Me: "Which one?"
She tried to show me. I looked at her eyes and she was beautiful. She was a very simple girl who was very kind. She was also so gullible because of being nice. I preferred someone as good as Ann, but she was good enough. So, I decided to ask her.
Me: "OK. Thanks. You are so cute. Can I see you sometime?"
She: "Ooo, I have a boyfriend."
Me: "It was obvious. When are you going to break up?"
She: "I don't know." Just laughing.
Me: "Anyways thank you for your help. Bye."
She: "Bye."
When I told about her to Henry
Henry: "Many girls are saying this only to be nice and not saying that I am not interested."
Me: "At least, I know that they are not interested. They don't show themselves as interested to rob you off and leave you."
Henry: "You are right. But it is better to find girls in the university clubs and groups or events. This way it is not possible for us. This way is only for those boys who have a lot of money or are sexy enough steal the girl's heart in a single minute."
Me: "I know, but I met no awesome girl in those groups. Right now, there are at least 3-5 girls that they know me that way, and they would like to be with me, but I am not interested in them. Think about it. It is more than two months and I just met 4-5 awesome girls. The probability that one of them could be in one of these groups of 10-15 people was almost zero."
Me: "Hi. Do you know where parking lot J is?"
She: "Hi. No." She looked around, but she couldn't find it. "I think that you can go to that building and ask them."
Me: "Which one?"
She tried to show me. I looked at her eyes and she was beautiful. She was a very simple girl who was very kind. She was also so gullible because of being nice. I preferred someone as good as Ann, but she was good enough. So, I decided to ask her.
Me: "OK. Thanks. You are so cute. Can I see you sometime?"
She: "Ooo, I have a boyfriend."
Me: "It was obvious. When are you going to break up?"
She: "I don't know." Just laughing.
Me: "Anyways thank you for your help. Bye."
She: "Bye."
When I told about her to Henry
Henry: "Many girls are saying this only to be nice and not saying that I am not interested."
Me: "At least, I know that they are not interested. They don't show themselves as interested to rob you off and leave you."
Henry: "You are right. But it is better to find girls in the university clubs and groups or events. This way it is not possible for us. This way is only for those boys who have a lot of money or are sexy enough steal the girl's heart in a single minute."
Me: "I know, but I met no awesome girl in those groups. Right now, there are at least 3-5 girls that they know me that way, and they would like to be with me, but I am not interested in them. Think about it. It is more than two months and I just met 4-5 awesome girls. The probability that one of them could be in one of these groups of 10-15 people was almost zero."
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