Searching for new house

I am looking for renting another place. I saw an ad in Craigslist website, and I went to see the house. The owner was a Chinese boy (+ his brother) who bought this place to give it for rent to make some money. He was an honest person. 

It had three rooms. One for 475$, the very small one with shared bathroom. The other one was a little larger for 525$ with shared bathroom. The last one had a private bathroom and was very very large. It was like a one bedroom apartment. I liked the place, but I don't know which room should I take.

I probably get one with shared bathroom to save some money and have more fun with my money. I don't think that I will get any girlfriend here :)

I am unbelievably tired

These days I am unbelievably tired. I can think of many reasons. The first one is some pills that I ate for about a month and half and it had some side-effects on my body. I don't eat them anymore, but I still suffer from its side-effects. I still have pain in my side, and I don't know what is this for. It is probably because of sitting all the time at my desk. I don't want to be sick. I hope to become well again. This is probably the most important reason.

The second one is things that happened about that UCSD girl; it can't trust any Iranian girl after her; I really didn't know that I could be that wrong, and she was not the only case here. I saw another Iranian girl here with an Indian boy.

The third one was all those cheaters in the class that I was TA for; it ruined my trust to all Indian guys.

The forth one was watching something that I shouldn't watch; it feel nausea when I think about it. Even though it had a very bad impression on my, I don't like to write about it.

The fifth one is all these hard works without any break specially this semester.

The sixth is not having appropriate sleep at night; I barely sleep well these nights; I usually sleep 1 am, 2 am, and I wake up 5:30, and I can't sleep (doing nothing) until 8 am, and I sleep again until 10:40, and it is not enough; I couldn't even have my night prayers.

The seventh is that I can't fly like before. Every time I try to fly I hit the ceiling only. I can't go beyond this. It is almost three months that I couldn't have a good fly.

The eight one is that I don't feel successful; I spent lots of time on my project, and it still in its earlier stages, and it is not usable yet; I wish I could go somewhere for the summer, but I couldn't.

The nine one is that I should change my living place, and I still don't know where can I go.

The tenth is that I can't eat well these days. It is mostly because of my sleep habit. For example, today I couldn't eat my breakfast as I woke up late, and I didn't eat anything for lunch.

Eleventh is Taylor. I don't know if I should miss her or not. What if she is a lier like other girls? What if I am wrong about her just like being wrong about that UCSD girl or other girls?

And the last one is my life purpose. I think that I am far away from my life purpose now. I can't even find a direct path. I don't have any idea how to get there, and what else to do.

I really need some rest and refreshment. I can't live like this.

(Some reasons removed intentionally)

Shirley is not a good girl :(

I talked to Adrian, my UCSD friend, tonight, and I asked about Shirley.

Me: "You were supposed to tell me about that girl."
He: "Ummm. What can I say? I think that she is not your match."
Me: "Why?" (It was obvious that he really didn't like that girl. He didn't want to talk about her.)
He: "You will come here and see her."
Me: "No, tell me now."
He: "She is not a good girl. She was with Iranian boys for a while and now she is with foreigners; people say that."
Me: "Oh, if she is such a girl, I don't like it."
He: "Maybe she is not, I said people say that. [I am pretty sure that she is, but I don't want to interfere in these things]"
Me: "People don't say this about good girls. Let her go." [I dislike all these kinds of girls who pretend that they never had a boyfriend and they spent all their time with so many girls.]

My friend had a clearly reluctant-to-talk-about-her tune all along the conversation. After that, I felt sad. I counted on this girl; I didn't know that I could be such wrong about someone. She was among a few who could understand me, but what's the point of understanding me when she is not a good girl; it causes more problems. Even Ella could understand me, but ....

I always dislike Iranian girls for having such bad attitudes like this. I had a conversation with another boy in my university who told me about two other Iranian girls who were in a relationship with other boys, and they always lie that they are single. Kids, avoid Iranian girls! It is almost impossible to know if they are liers or not. FIND a TAYLOR!

I had a related dream about it last night. We were in a party, and a girl asked me to go a yard to talk privately.
She: "I heard that you like me."
Me: "That's true!"
She: "So???" [Don't you want to be with me?]
Me: "I heard something about you."
She: "What? That I have a boyfriend?" [Shouldn't I get a boyfriend? All girls have boyfriends. You just don't want to be with me because I had a boyfriend, but you don love me; don't you?]
Me: "I heard that you had three boyfriends at the same time."
She: "No. I have only one."
Me: "It's too late. I am leaving." [You still have a boyfriend, and you expect me to love you. I can't.]
She: "No. please... wait..."

and I left her. It was probably related to my feelings about that UCSD girl. I also had a dream about Nancy, and I was stalking her in the campus for a while, and she knew it, and she was running away, but it has nothing to do with my story :)

Birthday party or water war game?

I was invited by one of my friends to celebrate his birthday party in his home. I know that Camellia is also coming, and I know that they may decide to have a water war game. These kinds of games can easily cause friends to be more intimate.

I remembered when I was a kid, and we played this game in Eram Park (a theme park in Tehran). "If he didn't love me he wouldn't play water war game with me" she said, and she was right. I really loved her, but ...

I was scared that the same thing happen here. I really don't know Camellia, and I don't like to break the ices between us this soon. I intentionally went there two hours late to make sure that I won't play water war with them. When I got there, they were almost tired, but they drenched me entirely. All of my friends pour water on me. It was like I took a shower with all my cloths on. We had a great night. Tonight I understood that Camellia really likes me, and she would like to be with me. She even bought everybody water guns. In one hand, I know that our relationship will go nowhere. On the other hand, I would like to have some experience being with women to not to loose my love because of being stupid.

Discover Your Life Purpose

One of my friends shared this link:
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2005/01/how-to-discover-your-life-purpose-in-about-20-minutes/

It was interesting to me because I introduced this blog in my previous blog a few years ago. I decided to try it. The result was surprising. I opened a word file and wrote this in the first line: "What is the purpose of my life?" Then I started a bullet list from number 1. I wrote the first answer, and it really made me cry. I didn't even take more than 1 minute for me. I already knew what I want. (Sorry, it is so personal that I can't share it with anybody.)

Classic Music concert in our university

I went to a classic music even in our university. It was my first time being in a classic music concert. I went there with Jeeraj. There was a line before entering the room. I met a girl whom I met her in the first semester. I had been thinking that she was from France, but she said she is Texan. Then, we met three other girl who were in ABG fraternity. Jeeraj was surprised about the number of girls whom I know :) Even I got surprised. I know more girls in two years that I used to know in my whole entire life. It means that I am in the right track :)

I really enjoyed the show. I had a very good feeling tonight. The music really turned me on. I was like a drunk guy during the show moving my head and hands with waves of the tunes.

Falafel with Sophia (Shabbat)

I spent the whole day working on my project. I was trying to increase the quality of video communication, and I couldn't. I need to work more on it.

I went to another Jewish event today. Only four persons were there. I was very shy, and I couldn't talk much. I was very silent. In one hand I really wanted to talk to Sophia. On the other hand, I could understand only 50% of their conversations. I still need lots of improvements to understand English.

They complained that not everybody here takes Jewish traditions seriously. Sophia said, "I wish we were in Israel; we could have our Friday nights there because everybody is Jew there." Another woman there agreed. She said, "I don't like to say this, but America is a kind of Christian country. We are like strangers here. Even Jewish communities are not that active. Friday is not off, and we can't have our traditions every Friday."
I felt that I had the same feeling when I came to the US. There are a few who are Muslims here, and I don't get the feeling about the tradition like I had in Iran. I didn't know that it could be true about other religions.

We ate our dinner there, and Sophia sang another Jewish song. It is very cute when she speaks and sings in Hebrew. It was the song:



I didn't like this video, but since Sophia liked it, I shared it here. I think that the one we sang together was better. I really felt like a stranger here. I had no idea about some subjects that they were talking about, and my English is not that good to understand even the things that I know.

Quantum Computing talk

There was an amazing talk in my university today about Quantum Computing. I really enjoyed the talk. He said something that I had never thought about it: "There is no security! Computation power is the enemy of security. We can decode any encryption by powerful computing. One can save all encrypted data at this time, and decode it ten years from now when power of computation will be 100 times greater than now!"

This is simply unbelievable. I can see a completely different world in 50 years henceforth. Sometimes I really like to write a book about my imaginations. I will do that when I fulfilled my purpose of life.

One hour meditation changed everything

I was feeling down in the morning. I was like a death person living in this earth. I didn't know what to do. I decided to do meditation. It has been a while that I hadn't time to do meditation. After about 40 minutes, I started to feel better and better. After an hour, I fell asleep. When I woke up, I was good again. I had a very amazing day feeling awesome all the day. It is hard to find something that really works, but I am pretty sure that it really works. Now, I can say for sure that meditation also works. You can try it :)

Her perfection is overwhelming

Nothing is like this that you open your FB and you find a new photo shared by Taylor on the top of your list. Her perfection is overwhelming, and I can't endure it. (This was a comment on this picture of Taylor)

Feeling numb and heartless

I don't feel good these days. It is probably because of being tired, or it may have other reasons. I am feeling heartless with no emotions. I feel that I felt from the skies and I can't fly anymore. I cried last night again to ask God what I really want to have. I don't know if he listens to me or not. It is a very complicated situation that I don't want to be in. I am not even depressed like before. It is something between happiness and depression. It doesn't even fluctuate. I hope to get rid of this very soon.

So many students of a class involved in plagiarism

I graded a series of assignments of the course that I am TA for, and it was unbelievably terrible. More than 15 students had similar assignments in 7 groups of 2-4 students. I ran away my home country because of liers and cheaters, and I am facing them again here in another form. I don't know what my professor is going to do about them, but I know that I hate being in this situation. They will also hate me when they figure out that I caught them all red-handed.

Today was a waste of time. I graded those assignments. Then, I took Nancy to see an apartment. I wanted to see that apartment myself too. After that, we went to a T-mobile shop because Nancy was going to change her sim card. Finally, I went to that Indian meditation group. I gave my car to Justin again tonight because his wife has a road test tomorrow.

A Chinese girl is very similar to me

I was in Toastmasters session again tonight. There is a Chinese girl there whom is very similar to me inside. I can't believe it. We have so many things in common. Whenever they ask for her opinion, she expresses exactly the same thing that I have in my mind. She also has a picture diary like me, and she takes pictures of her life moments. She surprised me tonight again by talking about herself when I figured out that she does exactly the same things for relaxation as me. I think that I should know this girl better if I find some time.

Easter Holiday with Catholics

I worked form the morning to the night. I was very tired, but I decided to go to Easter party celebrated by Catholics in our university. I thought I may see the other girl whom I saw a few days ago. Their program was already started, and I knew absolutely nobody there. A pretty girl came to me, and I asked her to explain Easter to me. She did her best to explain it in a few words. I got it!

I was kind of very strange there, but I was interested to know more about them. She asked another person to be my teammate. We played a few games. One of the games was to throw eggs for your teammate to catch it. We stand in front of each other and she was asking us to increase the distance every round. I could throw the egg correctly in the fourth round. I supposed to throw it over my back, and it was really hard to do that. Even though my teammate was very tall, he couldn't get the ball.

I also got some of the foods they provided.

They already painted all the eggs when I got there. I wish I could paint some of them. I couldn't understand the relationship between all these eggs and Easter celebration.

I talked to that girl for a while. Later I talked to a boy who was very young. I told him about my travel to Italy, and he said it is his dreamland! I remembered that Vatican belongs to Catholics and that's why they worship this place. It was very interesting to him that I had visited Rome. Later, I figured out that he was the brother of the girl whom welcomed me. I was very shy tonight, and I couldn't communicate well with them. When the party was over, a tall girl came to me and gifted a book titled "Rome Sweet Home." I hope that I have some time to read this book.

The girl whom welcomed me was very pretty. "What's wrong with these girls? They are very good. Why shouldn't I consider to be with them?" I asked myself all along there. I can like girls similar to her, but I can't love them. I don't know why. Perhaps I am too old, or I love someone more than them. 

Chili's night!

 I gave my car to Justin to practice with his wife. His wife is going to take her road this the next week. He came after me tonight to go to a restaurant. We went to Chili's for the first time. They had a device on every desk to see the menu and order something. I really liked this idea. We payed our bills with that device.

 The food was very good, and I liked it.

First Football experience

I had never played American Football until today. It was a good experience. I went with some of toastmasters friends and Henry to play Football in a park. The weather was amazingly beautiful today. We really enjoyed it.

Game night

After that Japanese game night, I went to toastmasters game night. A boy played guitar and sang a song. I wish I could play guitar to sing some songs to Taylor someday, but I don't have time to learn it.

Some girls from Taiwan asked me about my age. They got surprised when they realized I am 30. Their guesses were all around 25-26! I can't even imagine that.

When I was in Iran, people used to say that I looked older than my age. I was 26, and they saw me like 30. Now, I am 30, and people see me as 26. It seems that my age got reversed as I came to the US!

I bought some flowers and a big cake. I used to have one of those flowers when I was in my home country, and I wish I could have one here for myself.

Japanese game night

Tonight was a Japanese game night. I went late because I just wanted to see what's there. There is a Japanese girl that I like, and she was also there. She knows that I like her, but she is too young for me. She is a very naughty girl.

The feeling was amazing. It was like I was in Tokyo.

A professor talk who was an entrepreneur

There was a talk in our university today by a professor who was an entrepreneur. It made me think that I might be able to do something similar to his work for my thesis. In fact, start-up companies are researching for a business model. This research can be a doctorate thesis. Can't be?

Easter music

I went to that Indian meditation event with Jeeraj. After meditation, we were walking around the campus that we heard some guys are playing music. When we approached that place, a girl saw me and smiled at me, and it was like she had seen a friend she really loves. Her name was Taylor. I thought that I was wrong, and she might have seen a friend (like a few days age when Sophia saw her friend and I thought that she had seen me). However, she came to talk to me after the show.

She: Hi. I saw that you were taking pictures.
Me: Hi. Yes. I take pictures of everything! What is this for?
She: This is for Easter.
Me: What is Easter?
She: We are Catholics. We believe that Jesus returned after three days, and we celebrate this every year.
Me: Interesting. [Oh, Another Christian? So, you didn't like me? You just wanted to advertise your religion to me?]

(Very long conversation about major, religion ...)

She: OK....
Me: OK....
She: [Smile]
Me: [Smile]

She expected me to do something like asking her number or exchanging Facebook or whatever, but I didn't know if I should have done that. At first, I thought that she was just wanted to advertise her religion to me, but after our conversation, I realized that she liked me. She was only 18, and it was her first semester. I had this feeling that this might lead to a very passionate love for her, and I didn't want to hurt her. So, I didn't exchange numbers.

She talked to Jeeraj a little, but it was obvious that she was not really into talking to him. She just wanted to show that she was a sociable girl, and it was not a big deal that she had talked to me.

Jeeraj: Who was that girl?
Me: I don't know.
Jeeraj: I though that she was Ann and she came to say, "I love you!"
Me: No, it was my first time seeing her, and Ann never say this to me! She has a boyfriend.
Jeeraj: But she came to you very passionately that I thought that you knew her.

He was right. Kids, it seems that my changes are positive. For the first time, I see that some girls are showing their interests to me.

Pigeon home spotted

I found a pigeon house in a cozy place in our university where I passed millions of times, and I haven't seen this before. I like it when I find something as awesome as this somewhere.

Love you little bird.

Lots of new years!

There was an amazing talk in toastmasters today about new year celebrations in India. She said there exists more than 23 different new year celebrations in one year there! It was very interesting to me because I noticed that I experienced lots of new years this year a few days. We had Persian new year, Indian new year, Jewish new year, Christian new year, and some others that I didn't have time to go. It is one of the most strange things that a foreigner can experience in the US. 

Three hours talking to Camellia

Camellia called me today to talk about a decision in her life. She was not satisfied from her major and most importantly the group she was working with. I tried to guide her the best I could. I had this feeling that she made up a story to have something to talk to me. I don't know if I was right or wrong. Anyway, I talked to her, and I get to know her better as she told me the story of her life and how she got here. I also told her mine.

Martin's daughter's birthday

My professor took me to Martin's house. They invited me one week ago, but they hadn't told me about the birthday party, so I didn't know it was his daughter's birthday, and I didn't buy anything for her. I didn't expect that our meeting be that long that I got to Martin's house very late.

The party was good, and they prepared lots of food.

The was a girl, Camellia, there that I couldn't remember when I met her before. She knew me, but I didn't know her. She tried to break the ices between us by doing uncommon things. I got surprised when I heard that she planned this with Martin's wife to get my eyeglasses to wet me. We played water battle in Martin's house, and she started the game. I tried to be like myself. I can't say I like her, and I can't say that if she likes me I don't like her.

A business meeting day

My professor called me today to go to another town and talk to a doctor regarding our project. He came late and I had a very amazing time enjoying awesome weather of today.

In the way, he asked me so many questions about marriage in Iran. I wish I had written them earlier because I can't remember many parts of this now. I also get familiar with Indian culture. Perhaps, he knows someone, and he would like to introduce her to me because he said, "Indian culture has many things in common with your culture. I think that you should consider marring an Indian girl." I was thinking about Taylor all the time he was talking about marriage.

We met in a McDonalds store. That person was a very bright person. He was also from India. At first, we suggested to have a software company, but he had a better idea. I really liked his idea. Since it's a business idea, I can't write about it here, but it was kind of generalized version of our idea in the form of services and not products.

It was very busy the way back home. We discussed about that person's idea. I think that we may take it sometime later. We really need to think about the business model he suggested.

One day wasting on my course project

In order to finish my parts of my course project, I spent the whole day today. I was very unhappy doing all these things because it was a complete waste. I expected them to do these things to learn something. I already knew all these things. In addition, I almost did all major parts of the project that is useful for the final grade. The rest of the project is like a hobby. They can easily do it by copying and pasting my codes. I don't want to spend more time on this project.

Looking for a new house

I decided not to stay in my current house. It is because my roommate is going to get another person for the summer. It means that I won't have my private bath, and I don't like it. Other people are not clean enough to share a bathroom with. In addition, my rent is 700$, and I can find a much cheaper place with shared bathroom. It means that in the case that I stay there in the summer I need to pay 200$ more than I get, and I don't like to do that. So, I am looking for another place.

I went to see another house today. The location was good and close to the campus.

However, the house was very dirty. It was 500$ with a shared bath with a female. Usually girls are clean, but this was different. I didn't like it.

The room was also very dark and dirty. He had two mischievous boys who were at school the time I got there. I think that he planned somehow for me to not to see his sons. I didn't even see that girl, but I heard she has a boyfriend. It is hard to find another place close to the university.

I talked to my UCSD friend

I talked to Adrian, my UCSD friend, tonight. We discussed about the future of healthcare and medications. In fact, there will be an unbelievable revolution in less than 10 years in healthcare, and I would like to be a part of this revolution. He was going to start research with a professor there working on bio-engineering. My friend suggested me to watch this course in Udacity.

https://www.udacity.com/course/viewer#!/c-bio110/l-301726613/e-301771578/m-301771579

I liked 23AndMe's idea. Their results are not accurate, but it is an amazing start. In less than ten years, these kinds of information will be more accurate and useful.

I also talked to him about that girl, Shirley, and I asked him to get more information about her. He sent me two new pictures that they took on a trip that they went with each-other. Her photos were amazing. She really is a pretty good girl. If I want to go back to Iran, I prefer to marry someone like her. If I marry someone like Taylor, I may never be able to go back to my home country. Another good thing about those who came to the US as a student is that they are almost the best people in Iran regarding intelligence and being down to earth. If they have a good family, they can be a complete package. I am a picky person, but I think that it is worth it.

I will see her this summer, and my friend is going to plan a trip to go with each other. Let's see what's going to happen.

No more insurance!

I got a letter from StateFarm that they won't renew my insurance. It made me sad. I need to find another insurance company, and it might be hard. My first accident was really an accident, and the second one was because of weather conditions. Even though the second one was not that bad, they made this decision. Let's see what's going to happen.

I learned about SalesForce

I went to an Entrepreneurial club in my university today. The guys talked about selling things. It was very interesting. I can never be a seller, but I could understand their job for the first time. I realized that how hard it would be to sell something to someone. 

In addition, I learned about SalesForce. I liked its idea. They organize everything related to a sale. They even assign probability to potential buyers based on the number of contacts they had and if they visited the website or not. It was kind of interesting to me.

I know this person since the first semester. He has a successful start-up company, and he shared his experiences with us several times. I may work with him someday. He is a good person.

So happy about my thesis project

I am so happy about my thesis project (if we can call it a thesis project). I almost finished the toughest part of it, and the rest will be routine, and I know how to do it. I would like to ask my friend to help me with its user interface later. 

My kid's painting

My first kid sent me a painting again and made me very happy. I am so grateful that I can be a small help to someone's life.

I can see lots of happiness in her painting. His sun is smiling; chimney is smoking; lots of birds have filled the whole sky. 

Crazy teammates!

Today was terrible. I had suggested not to work on some parts of the project until we ask the professor. Our professor expected us to show it today. My teammates were very rude to me because of that. There was no grade and nothing bad by not having this part, but they treated me very badly.

Some people are really crazy and they don't understand this. I am at least 10 YEARS more experienced than them. I am 8 years older than them, but they can't understand the situation. They compare me with themselves, and they don't understand what they are saying. It is ridiculous when they tell me that they couldn't use my code because when they change it, it doesn't work; it is because they don't know how to do it, not because of my mistake.

They don't understand that every minute I spend on this project is a waste of time for me, and every minute they spend is valuable to them. If they were expected me to teach them something, then it was not a waste to me because I was useful to them. They expect me to do more than I should do.

European Heritage celebration

There was a celebration about European countries in my university today. They had five different games, and I play three of them. I answered some questions about flags and matching American English words with British English words. It was interesting because I figured out that many words that I learned in school were British. For example, trousers in British English means pants in American English. I was talking to Jeeraj one day, and I used this word, and he had no idea about its meaning; now I know why.

The music and dance were very good. I had four peaces of pizza tonight because they had ordered more than necessary. I hadn't have this much pizza for many months.

It was weird when those old people started to dance. Some songs were familiar as I had heard them before. They were probably very famous folk music.

Chocolate Seder

I went to another Jewish event today. It was an unbelievable one. They had a complete ritual just to eat chocolate. It was very interesting. We played a short version, but a woman said that the complete one takes three to four hours. 

Everyone started to read a paragraph of a text. After a few paragraphs, it was written to eat one of the chocolate types. They didn't have all types there, but they prepared something to represent that. For example, they used Marshmallow instead a white chocolate.

I was nervous to read the text because I didn't want Sarah know that my English is not that good, but I read it very well. I still can't remember that people sit together just to eat chocolate as a part of their religion. Awesome!

We are on the same page

I had a long conversation about the business model with my professor today. He mentioned something that I was exactly going to do myself. He wanted to give the software for free to everyone to create a market barrier. It is very good, and I like it. Not only we can help more people, we can reduce risk of future competitors. This can also help me with EB2 later if it worked. 

I am researching about Miley cyrus

I was in the cafe like any other day that I saw that girl who was interested to me again. She saw me and smiled. She was uncomfortable to come and talk to me, but I shook my hand, and she noticed that I noticed her. She walked toward me, and I figured out that she remembers me.

She: Hi
Me: Hi.
Then she hugged me!

She: What are you doing here?
Me: I am working on my project.
She: Let me see.

I showed my project to her.

Me: What are you doing?
She: I am researching about Miley Cyrus for one of my courses.
Me: That's interesting. (Hopefully, I knew her because of Taylor!) What is your research topic?
She: Have you seen her VMA's performance?
Me: No. (I just saw Taylor's!)
She: Don't watch it.
Me: Why?
She: It was very bad. My research is to understand what caused her to be changed that much. There is something in psychology that girls are interested in their father's attitudes, and I should show that this is true about Miley. I come here because I don't want to let her be in my room. (I can't remember her sentences completely. I tried to write the meanings. She meant that she didn't want to study about such a bad person in her room that is kind of secure and clean.)
Me: How you are going to show it?
She: I should study her from her childhood to now.
Me: Maybe it is not her father. Maybe there are other factors.
She: Like what?
Me: I don't know. Maybe you can study her until before her VMA performance! :)
She: No, it should be a complete study. Oh, I got it. That's a bullshit! OK. I gonna go. I should start working on this. Nice to meet you.
Me: Nice to meet you.

It was interesting when she said that she didn't want to let Miley's story to be in her room. I didn't know that American girls can have such an attitude.

A night with Hanson and Henry

I took Jeeraj to JCPenny again to buy a formal shoe because he has an interview on Monday. Then I took him to an Indian shop, and he bought so many Indian food there. It was not allowed to take a picture inside. It was full of Indian things. I bought some Indian snacks. I wanted to buy some ready-to-eat foods there, but I changed my mind because I wanted to taste them all fresh in restaurants.

I was in the shop when Hansen called me, and invited me to a dinner in his house. I was going to buy something for Nancy because today was her birthday, and I asked Hansen if he wanted to join me, but he declined. Since I didn't want to go there alone, I accepted Hansen's invitation, and I went to his house. I had congratulated Nancy for her birthday last night, but I wanted to buy a cake and spend some hours with her that I couldn't.

I had a great time studying Plato's Symposium book. I read the introduction, and a few pages of its beginning, and I am going to continue reading that in my free time. It seems to be a very interesting book. Hansen and one of his friends played Persian traditional music the whole night. I wish I could join them in playing or singing, but I couldn't. Henry was practicing calligraphy the whole night while enjoying their music. I may try singing with them once.

Goodbye party

I went to a goodbye party of a friend here. I called Nancy, and we went there together. It was the same restaurant where we went for the new year celebration. Nancy sat next to me. I tried to talk to the people at the table, but I really don't like to talk unless necessary.

When I was taking pictures something happened. "You and Nancy, let's take a picture with me together," my friend said. It was a little shocking for me and even Nancy. There is nothing between us, but he thought that we might be interested to have a picture together there. I hope that no one else has such a idea. Nancy is a good girl, but she loves someone whom I don't know, and she is just a friend to me.

Nancy passed her driving test

Nancy had her road test today. We went to the test center together. She drove the car. I was in my thoughts that she said something to break the silence. I noticed that I didn't talk to her for more than 15 minutes. She got uncomfortable and she wanted to start talking. I was thinking about something that happened yesterday that I can't write about it because it is a very personal thing related to Nancy. I tried to talk to her and make her comfortable. I even made her laugh, but I was cautious not to distract her from driving.

I had lots of stress again, and I don't know why. It seems that I can't handle stress like before. A very small thing like a driving test can cause stress to me. Hopefully, she passed her test today. I really wanted to ask her out for lunch, but since we were invited to a dinner party, and it was not a suitable time, I changed my mind for sometime later.