Today, I woke up early in the morning because I should finish our team project before noon. I didn't even go to my first class to finish it. I sent Angelina a message and asked her to come to the lab to print our documents, but she didn't show up. In our first class, I saw that American boy had sat next to Angelina again. “If I don’t go and sit next to her, I may lose my chances to have her as my friend.” I said to myself. Therefore, I went there and I sat on the chair next to her. I asked her whether she had printed the documents or not, and she said that she did.
In the whole class, I was thinking about Angelina, and I could hardly concentrate on the course. She was texting to someone every a few minutes. She was hiding her mobile cell in her hands below the table. Something she looked excited, and sometimes she was anxious. I think that she has found a boyfriend during the break. I wanted to talk to her before the break, but I couldn’t.
In the next class, that boy had sat on a chair in front of Angelina. So, they couldn't talk anymore. I came to the classroom, and I sat next to one of our other teammates in a location that I could easily see Angelina. During this class, she continued her texting. I couldn't listen to the professor when I was thinking about her. I was thinking to myself that I had this chance to talk to her. I could ask her to be my friend before the break. Now, she has found a new boyfriend, and this American boy is also interested in her. The boy even took her chance to talk to her after TA gave us our exam results to review.
I am older than both of them, and I don’t want to intrude her life. Now, she has no more time for me as she is spending her time with his boyfriend. I felt that maybe I was jealous about her, but I was not. I was thinking that I can no longer be her friend. I also concerned about that boy. Maybe he is going to marry her. They are both Americans, and in the marriage age. I don’t want to be more than a friend for her, but I don’t know how to tell her.
I left the class before Angelina. While I was walking through the aisle Angelina came next to me.
“How was your exam result?” She asked.
“It was OK.” I answered.
“I didn’t expect to get that grade.” She said.
“Really?” I asked.
Then she explained about the exam and her performance, but I couldn’t understand well. I walked with her toward the parking lots. I tried to talk to her while we were walking in the lots. I told her that it was better to plan for the next phase of our project because I couldn’t sleep well whole the night to work on this project. She was laughing loudly during our conversation. She had a very beautiful laugh that I had never heard before until today. I was happy that I could keep the conversation going. She was laughing to anything that I was telling to her. Of course, I also laughed to anything she said. Then, we were very far from the department building. It was the last parking lot in the university that she stopped, and asked with smile and surprise: “Where are you going?” “Oh! Actually I should go that way. The car is over there! OK. I will go back there.” I said, and we bid goodbye.
“Oh, excuse me. ” I turned back, and asked her. “What?” She turned back and asked me. “I am sorry. Nothing. I’ll ask you later.” I said, and she just smiled and we followed our paths. Actually, I didn’t want to ask her anything. I just wanted to see her reaction, and create a question in her mind probably to obsess her mind. She just got surprised that how long I would like to spend my time with her. “OK. Go!” She cutely thought to herself! I think that she was thinking about her boyfriend and never thinks about me after we left each other today.